..this house is not a home...
Dear Mom and Dad,
I know i dont always show you that i appreciate everything you do for me, but please know that i really do. i'm very thankful for what i have, and i do understand that it could be so much worse.
But i have some things to ask of you. you know how you're always asking me how i feel? well, everytime i try to tell you, it ends in an argument- as i'm sure you've noticed. Please, spare me the lectures on how lucky i am and how much worse it could be, and just listen to what i have to say. You say you want to be closer to me, but that cant happen if you wont listen.
You know that i'm not happy in Newport and you keep telling me to "give it a chance." Well, i have given it a chance. i dont like it. some people dont belong in certain places. i dont belong there. you say i feel this way because i dont know anyone. from what i've seen and heard, the kids there arent the type of people i want to hang out with. they're the kids you've warned me about. the ones you dont want me hanging around.
Then there's the money issue. You guys knew money was tight before we moved. so why did we? and dont say it was for a better life for me and jake. all it ended up doing was making things worse. not to sound selfish, but you guys knew i was going into my senior year. Senior Wear, Prom, Spring Break... Senior year is expensive and you guys knew that. Plus i got my license. and i'm going to college next year. sure, tuition's free, but books and lab fees are expensive. and the new truck... you dont have money to buy me shoes, yet you can buy a $40,000 truck. please tell me how that's possible. and spare me the lecture on getting a job. i've put in applications. that's the best i can do.
And college. like i said before, i know tuition's free, but i really really dont want to go there. it's too far to drive. yes Mom, i know you drive it every night, but no offense, i think it's stupid. starting next year most of my money will be going towards gas. how can i save up for a house or an apartment without money? i'm really sorry but i'm not happy living at "home". honestly, i love being away. yes, i miss you guys, but before we moved i was really depressed. things were too stressful for me. i couldnt handle it and it drove me into a really deep depression. but no one ever took the time to notice. to me, whenever i was home it seemed like i was always being yelled at for every little thing that i did or didnt do. i dont mean to sound selfish, but it really seemed like no one took the time to appreciate the things that i did do. i felt like i was there to be your slave. no kid should ever have to feel like that. and i always felt sheltered. too over-protected. i saw the freedom my friends had, and only wished i could be like that. please dont tell me what it was like for you when you were growing up. i've heard it enough. i already know.
So please, all i really ask is that you listen a little more and yell a little less. maybe then everyone can be happy.
Love,
Tiffany
I know i dont always show you that i appreciate everything you do for me, but please know that i really do. i'm very thankful for what i have, and i do understand that it could be so much worse.
But i have some things to ask of you. you know how you're always asking me how i feel? well, everytime i try to tell you, it ends in an argument- as i'm sure you've noticed. Please, spare me the lectures on how lucky i am and how much worse it could be, and just listen to what i have to say. You say you want to be closer to me, but that cant happen if you wont listen.
You know that i'm not happy in Newport and you keep telling me to "give it a chance." Well, i have given it a chance. i dont like it. some people dont belong in certain places. i dont belong there. you say i feel this way because i dont know anyone. from what i've seen and heard, the kids there arent the type of people i want to hang out with. they're the kids you've warned me about. the ones you dont want me hanging around.
Then there's the money issue. You guys knew money was tight before we moved. so why did we? and dont say it was for a better life for me and jake. all it ended up doing was making things worse. not to sound selfish, but you guys knew i was going into my senior year. Senior Wear, Prom, Spring Break... Senior year is expensive and you guys knew that. Plus i got my license. and i'm going to college next year. sure, tuition's free, but books and lab fees are expensive. and the new truck... you dont have money to buy me shoes, yet you can buy a $40,000 truck. please tell me how that's possible. and spare me the lecture on getting a job. i've put in applications. that's the best i can do.
And college. like i said before, i know tuition's free, but i really really dont want to go there. it's too far to drive. yes Mom, i know you drive it every night, but no offense, i think it's stupid. starting next year most of my money will be going towards gas. how can i save up for a house or an apartment without money? i'm really sorry but i'm not happy living at "home". honestly, i love being away. yes, i miss you guys, but before we moved i was really depressed. things were too stressful for me. i couldnt handle it and it drove me into a really deep depression. but no one ever took the time to notice. to me, whenever i was home it seemed like i was always being yelled at for every little thing that i did or didnt do. i dont mean to sound selfish, but it really seemed like no one took the time to appreciate the things that i did do. i felt like i was there to be your slave. no kid should ever have to feel like that. and i always felt sheltered. too over-protected. i saw the freedom my friends had, and only wished i could be like that. please dont tell me what it was like for you when you were growing up. i've heard it enough. i already know.
So please, all i really ask is that you listen a little more and yell a little less. maybe then everyone can be happy.
Love,
Tiffany