Trust
Lately I have been thinking about it and I have realized that I have a serious trust issue. I do not trust anyone except Ally completely! I don't trust my mom, my dad, or my sister. I don't trust anyone completely except Ally and it took her 4 years to gain that trust. My problem is that I don't know how to trust. I have never felt like I could trust anyone especially guys... nothing against guys cuz some of my best friends are guys but I don't trust them easily. I don't know why either. Most of the guys I know are really great and treat me wonderfully but its the few that don't that basically ruin it for all the other guys.
I feel so horrible for my boyfriend too because he's so great and I really want to trust him because he hasn't given me a reason not to but I am still so afraid that he will leave. Maybe once I get married I will trust my husband becuz I will then feel there is less of a chance to leave but right now I'm so afraid to lose anyone in my life that I just don't want to piss anyone off. Which really kinda sucks for me becuz I know that sometimes I just let people walk all over me and that's not fair to anyone. I just don't know what exactly I am supposed to do.
I feel so horrible for my boyfriend too because he's so great and I really want to trust him because he hasn't given me a reason not to but I am still so afraid that he will leave. Maybe once I get married I will trust my husband becuz I will then feel there is less of a chance to leave but right now I'm so afraid to lose anyone in my life that I just don't want to piss anyone off. Which really kinda sucks for me becuz I know that sometimes I just let people walk all over me and that's not fair to anyone. I just don't know what exactly I am supposed to do.