.beat me up and break me down.
the hurt is unbearable. why is it that i fell in love with someone who treats me like shit? i don't deserve that, noone does. i can already see which direction this is headed in. but its just soo hard to say goodbye for good. i wish i could forget him, i wish i could just erase him from my life completely. these tears wont stop coming. let me get over him. i dont know where to go from here. part of me wants to move on and forget it all, and the other part loves him with all of my heart. i'm stuck, the love hurts. i don't want to hurt anymore, i don't want to cry anymore. i want all of this heartache to just end. my heart has been stepped on way too many times. everyones telling me not to be with him, and i know that if i be with him i'm stupid. nothing will EVER change, it will always be treating me badly. i have never felt this deeply hurt before or this in love. why won't these tears stop coming? why cry over him? hes not worth my tears. i have to stay strong and look forward, not in the past. but i'm scared. i gave him everything, i gave him my heart. he turned into my best friend. i cry like a baby over this guy. you broke me, you never stop breaking me. you do it over and over again. why? my stomach completely dropped today and the tears came, and you ask me, " do you want to be together?" ofcoarse I do, i love you. but i feel like you step all over me and i always just put up with all of this hell. i want things the way they were when we first got together. the happiness, the fun, the love. all of that has been slowly slipping away. and it just hurts so bad to know that i need to move on that things have changed and NEVER will be the same. to know that it will never be the same as it was before.. does that make you upset? because looking back hurts my heart like no other. i want to be numb, i dont want to feel the pain right now. i want to say "fuck you" and not care. "is this love that i'm feeling?" this song makes me think of you. you don't seem the same, you never used to treat me this way. latly it has just been bitching and argueing. all the fucking hurt. i can't do it anymore, as hard as it is to say that. i can't make the action though. life is beautiful. i need happiness, i need friends. to hell with all of this hurt. i need to be positive. im numb, i'm throwing my feelings out the window for him.