Update
Life seems pretty miserable right now so hopefully my writing about it will somehow cheer me up a little bit.
I did not get cast into a paid production of the Addam's Family Musical partly maybe because I lied on my resume. I will be not lying anymore, I will change that. But I guess I just wasn't right for it.
I was right for Spring Awakening, a community theatre production in boca that rehearses two nights a week.
I feel not untalented, but just sad...it's hard when you want something so much and don't get it, get rejected. It makes you wonder if you should still be doing it. Why aren't you getting into paid productions? I am so tired of doing the right thing and still not getting it. I've apparently come very far. I work as a waitress/bartender at a Ruby Tuesday where the people that frequent there are old and uninteresting.
My Aunt's breast cancer went to her brain which makes me very sad as well. I saw her in the hospital today. I am beside myself about that as well.
But I must keep going. I do want to do drugs but I won't. Why make things worse and add guilt and shame to the mix of wonderful emotions I'm feeling now.
I just have to distract myself and be grateful for what I do have. Maybe stay off Facebook a while. Everyone else always seems to be moving up except me.
Valentines day was great even though I worked all day my boyfriend got me a beautiful bracelet. Also his Mom's here and she wants to go to Atlantis in the summer for a week. So, there are things to look forward to. School 2016 also.
I did not get cast into a paid production of the Addam's Family Musical partly maybe because I lied on my resume. I will be not lying anymore, I will change that. But I guess I just wasn't right for it.
I was right for Spring Awakening, a community theatre production in boca that rehearses two nights a week.
I feel not untalented, but just sad...it's hard when you want something so much and don't get it, get rejected. It makes you wonder if you should still be doing it. Why aren't you getting into paid productions? I am so tired of doing the right thing and still not getting it. I've apparently come very far. I work as a waitress/bartender at a Ruby Tuesday where the people that frequent there are old and uninteresting.
My Aunt's breast cancer went to her brain which makes me very sad as well. I saw her in the hospital today. I am beside myself about that as well.
But I must keep going. I do want to do drugs but I won't. Why make things worse and add guilt and shame to the mix of wonderful emotions I'm feeling now.
I just have to distract myself and be grateful for what I do have. Maybe stay off Facebook a while. Everyone else always seems to be moving up except me.
Valentines day was great even though I worked all day my boyfriend got me a beautiful bracelet. Also his Mom's here and she wants to go to Atlantis in the summer for a week. So, there are things to look forward to. School 2016 also.