hate minus the velocity of the human heart= bitch
GREAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIVE JOURNAL SUCKS!!! But y'all have 100% reason to loathe me and to wait for me burial and kick the ground i will be buried into.
Sarah was everything i wanted to be-- she had or has i dunno the relationship with the guys i was emmersed.. she was soo cool, she had the coolest wardrobe she was sooo popular we were best friends.. she was so much fun-- and then everything blew over and i don't want anything to do with her at all.
Neil was everything I needed. He was fun.. he made me laugh.. he made me smile.. he made me not wanna die.. he was the king. Sarah and Neil are just friends.. i'm sure they talk on the phone.. i'm sure they have a great times... i read sarah's lj and it was like jess beep beep off... and all that.. but i didn't do anything to her... i just to let neil know that i was right.. i told him most likely metaphorically that it would happen.. i went bilistic didn't i? I went crazy.. because whenever i'm with sarah I feel really small and un- everything or dis- everything... and she'd win.. because it's competition.. that was the frame of mind i had since the summer... i must be a real bitch too.. i must be soo consumed with myself that i don't realize the heartbreaks of the real world and people just can't deal with me anymore.. ok... well what about suicide remember that? How come that's not a factor.. or being abused eh? Having horrible family ties.. and mental stability how came that doesn't come into your minds.. what about all the good times we had.. don't tell me to fuck off... cuz i'm blaming you for everything.. I"m not...i created this .. i know..
i am gone.. you don't even see me at school.. i don't see you out of shcool we have completely different scenes.. i have grown up.. if i havn't i would be outside your door, calling you crying.. making ends meet.. giving you all white flags as peace.. I DON'T WANT THAT AND NEITHER DO YOU! I have grown.. and i'm still alive...you don't know me.. but what you know of me you don't like.. vice versa.. If you didn't care about me.. you wouldn't let it get to you.. if i didn't feel things for you.. i wouldn't be getting soooo annoyed by it.. this isn't the end..it's the start of something else. To care too much? i'd still take the bullets for you. My heart is huge and it has a lot of bullets penetrated in there... iguess that makes me the bitch in the situation.
Merry Christmas and Have a Happy New Year no more lj for me.
Sarah was everything i wanted to be-- she had or has i dunno the relationship with the guys i was emmersed.. she was soo cool, she had the coolest wardrobe she was sooo popular we were best friends.. she was so much fun-- and then everything blew over and i don't want anything to do with her at all.
Neil was everything I needed. He was fun.. he made me laugh.. he made me smile.. he made me not wanna die.. he was the king. Sarah and Neil are just friends.. i'm sure they talk on the phone.. i'm sure they have a great times... i read sarah's lj and it was like jess beep beep off... and all that.. but i didn't do anything to her... i just to let neil know that i was right.. i told him most likely metaphorically that it would happen.. i went bilistic didn't i? I went crazy.. because whenever i'm with sarah I feel really small and un- everything or dis- everything... and she'd win.. because it's competition.. that was the frame of mind i had since the summer... i must be a real bitch too.. i must be soo consumed with myself that i don't realize the heartbreaks of the real world and people just can't deal with me anymore.. ok... well what about suicide remember that? How come that's not a factor.. or being abused eh? Having horrible family ties.. and mental stability how came that doesn't come into your minds.. what about all the good times we had.. don't tell me to fuck off... cuz i'm blaming you for everything.. I"m not...i created this .. i know..
i am gone.. you don't even see me at school.. i don't see you out of shcool we have completely different scenes.. i have grown up.. if i havn't i would be outside your door, calling you crying.. making ends meet.. giving you all white flags as peace.. I DON'T WANT THAT AND NEITHER DO YOU! I have grown.. and i'm still alive...you don't know me.. but what you know of me you don't like.. vice versa.. If you didn't care about me.. you wouldn't let it get to you.. if i didn't feel things for you.. i wouldn't be getting soooo annoyed by it.. this isn't the end..it's the start of something else. To care too much? i'd still take the bullets for you. My heart is huge and it has a lot of bullets penetrated in there... iguess that makes me the bitch in the situation.
Merry Christmas and Have a Happy New Year no more lj for me.