lost
crisis....!!! i'm in that mode of picking up whatever pieces of myself that's been left after a horrible tropical storm. thing is, i don't even know where some (if not most) of these pieces are
i don't intend to be faux-profound /deep...
and it doesn't help to study all that ideas of Doxa and false consciousness/ideology. wuhhhhhhhhhh so apparently, who i think i am is merely an identification to some dominant world order, thank you very much.
i don't think i even feel anything anymore
and it's not fun.
i should get back to work. (i really like it, you know, whatever work that's waiting for me. but... it's just not enough and i have no idea what it takes to feel...... (in the vaguest sense) better )
maybe i should smoke first.
i don't intend to be faux-profound /deep...
and it doesn't help to study all that ideas of Doxa and false consciousness/ideology. wuhhhhhhhhhh so apparently, who i think i am is merely an identification to some dominant world order, thank you very much.
i don't think i even feel anything anymore
and it's not fun.
i should get back to work. (i really like it, you know, whatever work that's waiting for me. but... it's just not enough and i have no idea what it takes to feel...... (in the vaguest sense) better )
maybe i should smoke first.