Every day is grey, but it can't rain all the time...
Sometimes...looking back...it seems like yesterday was so long ago. Sometimes it seems like the past week has gone by really quickly. Time is a funny thing. It's a concept created by humans to try and add a little order to the chaos called 'existence'. Ha.
I went to a gig at one of the local unis tonight. It was alright.. About 5 acts were up.. Only the last band were really any good. But the beer was cheap, and the company was alright. So no real complaints. And besides, it was either hang out there, or go to a pub for a dose of funk. That would've been nice...but probably less lively. I need to get me some friends. Or something. I think I'm making progress in a way...I seriously consider talking to girls. Which is a step in the right direction I s'pose. Just need to take the next step. I feel like I'm ready for 'something'... Albeit maybe not a full-on serious relationship...but something.
It's funny how I used to be an all-nighter online...and now I'm on holiday I'm starting to get back into that habit...and not liking it much. I rolled out of bed around 3pm today. It was a great day, too.. Warm and sunny..and blue skies! W00t! Or something.. I'm definitely going to college tomorrow.. Need to get that sorted...and hopefully get myself an NUS card, so I can take advantage of all the luverly studenty-type stuff on offer, even though I won't technically be a student again until September. I don't really have any money for it...but I think I'm gonna make an effort to go out tomorrow night. I just need to get out the house. Even if I end up having a drink on my own in some random pub, I still need to get out there. Who knows, I might even..socialise. Mondays and Thursdays can't be my only 'going out' days. I can't stand staying in...can't stand being by myself at the minute. Maybe it's natural...after nearly 3 years of not really having much going on socially...as well as the fact I'm on my own now anyway. Instead of a partial vacuum...there's now a whole one. Must rectify that...yes..
I'm just drifting along....kidding myself, almost...I feel like I could slip back into seriously suicidal mode at any time...great way to feel.
I went to a gig at one of the local unis tonight. It was alright.. About 5 acts were up.. Only the last band were really any good. But the beer was cheap, and the company was alright. So no real complaints. And besides, it was either hang out there, or go to a pub for a dose of funk. That would've been nice...but probably less lively. I need to get me some friends. Or something. I think I'm making progress in a way...I seriously consider talking to girls. Which is a step in the right direction I s'pose. Just need to take the next step. I feel like I'm ready for 'something'... Albeit maybe not a full-on serious relationship...but something.
It's funny how I used to be an all-nighter online...and now I'm on holiday I'm starting to get back into that habit...and not liking it much. I rolled out of bed around 3pm today. It was a great day, too.. Warm and sunny..and blue skies! W00t! Or something.. I'm definitely going to college tomorrow.. Need to get that sorted...and hopefully get myself an NUS card, so I can take advantage of all the luverly studenty-type stuff on offer, even though I won't technically be a student again until September. I don't really have any money for it...but I think I'm gonna make an effort to go out tomorrow night. I just need to get out the house. Even if I end up having a drink on my own in some random pub, I still need to get out there. Who knows, I might even..socialise. Mondays and Thursdays can't be my only 'going out' days. I can't stand staying in...can't stand being by myself at the minute. Maybe it's natural...after nearly 3 years of not really having much going on socially...as well as the fact I'm on my own now anyway. Instead of a partial vacuum...there's now a whole one. Must rectify that...yes..
I'm just drifting along....kidding myself, almost...I feel like I could slip back into seriously suicidal mode at any time...great way to feel.