Well...I'm back
I used to have an account here, long ago..so long in fact, I don't even remember what I called myself. Nevermind..the point is, I feel the need to rant and rave publicly again. Not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but there it is..
I'm lost and alone, and I don't really know how I ended up this way. I guess it could have something to do with the fact that I put all my eggs in one basket. The cause of my current lack of enthusiasm for life is one we pretty much all go through a few times, but which doesn't make it any easier when you do. I got dumped. After 3 years together, and 18 months of living together...she didn't think we were working anymore and didn't think she loved me anymore. So I moved out. It's been just over a month since the move, just over 2 since the happy news..and I honestly don't know if things are getting any easier, or any better. I can speak, and eat normally again...I guess that's improvement. I've never been anywhere near this fluffed up in my life. I'm seeing a counselor..dunno if it's really much help yet, I've only been to a couple of sessions. Life would be so much simpler if I didn't still feel something for her, but therein lies the bittersweet irony inherrant in all things. *sigh* I'm not going to bore whoever may choose to read this with inane rambling about my ex too much.. Just need to get it out the way now, then I can move onto more mundane matters, such as what I do in the day, or what the bus driver said to me..
I loved her. Completely. She felt the same way at the time.. We were so good together, so perfect for eachother.. This must be the point in life where my faith in love crashes and burns, and all my romantic ideals go flying out the airlock...at least for now. I know I just need to accept it, get over it and move on. Plenty more fish in the sea, etc. I will...I guess. But I don't think I'll ever truly understand, or comprehend how she changed so much...and we drifted apart so much... That it was truly never meant to be. Eh..what the hell. If anyone wants to discuss lost love with me, I'll be happy to babble on to your heart's content, but I'll shut up about it on here for now.
Well...I don't think it's a bad first post..incoherrant..mostly crap.. But such is life. I think I'll go to bed now..not much else to do.
I'm lost and alone, and I don't really know how I ended up this way. I guess it could have something to do with the fact that I put all my eggs in one basket. The cause of my current lack of enthusiasm for life is one we pretty much all go through a few times, but which doesn't make it any easier when you do. I got dumped. After 3 years together, and 18 months of living together...she didn't think we were working anymore and didn't think she loved me anymore. So I moved out. It's been just over a month since the move, just over 2 since the happy news..and I honestly don't know if things are getting any easier, or any better. I can speak, and eat normally again...I guess that's improvement. I've never been anywhere near this fluffed up in my life. I'm seeing a counselor..dunno if it's really much help yet, I've only been to a couple of sessions. Life would be so much simpler if I didn't still feel something for her, but therein lies the bittersweet irony inherrant in all things. *sigh* I'm not going to bore whoever may choose to read this with inane rambling about my ex too much.. Just need to get it out the way now, then I can move onto more mundane matters, such as what I do in the day, or what the bus driver said to me..
I loved her. Completely. She felt the same way at the time.. We were so good together, so perfect for eachother.. This must be the point in life where my faith in love crashes and burns, and all my romantic ideals go flying out the airlock...at least for now. I know I just need to accept it, get over it and move on. Plenty more fish in the sea, etc. I will...I guess. But I don't think I'll ever truly understand, or comprehend how she changed so much...and we drifted apart so much... That it was truly never meant to be. Eh..what the hell. If anyone wants to discuss lost love with me, I'll be happy to babble on to your heart's content, but I'll shut up about it on here for now.
Well...I don't think it's a bad first post..incoherrant..mostly crap.. But such is life. I think I'll go to bed now..not much else to do.