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so they call me nothing more then a whore or so i think..bc of past mistakes things i shouldnt have done but i cant change the past i can only change the future...do ppl act all whorish to get attention or just bc they are one...some cant help it bc of things they have taken or drank...but really what considers a person to be a whore...these days so many ppl have so many different definitions of a whore...what should we consider a whore to be?
on other notes i am making admends with pete and we are getting over our arguements...but i still cant figure him out i dont know what he thinks of me but he knows what i think of him...he plays these well i know what i am looking for and i know that what i am lookin for is right in front of my face and then he plays these i hate u shit or things just to get on my nerves bc he knows what pushes my buttons...does that mean something
guys are just confussing they come with there own manual to read and to figure out how to work it...i hate that i wish that sometimes guys will just show their emotions more towards ppl towards things instead of keeping it built up and hiding it...sometimes i just think i want to give up on guys...i know ppl tell me that yeah there is some guy out there for u...i wish he would come sooner...and everytime i meet a guy and get to know him it just feels like he is the one i guess it is just my emotions messing with me...i need to keep a guard up im assuming bc everytime i dont have one i get hurt and i dont understand why...u sit there and talk with a guy and they tell u there perfect gurl and everytime i listen im telling myself inside me im that gurl im the that would do that im the one that would be there...why dont u see it...but i guess i just say that to make it feel like i belong somewhere with someone or i really could be that person and just havent found the right one yet...i dont know i guess i will just live my life the way i have been living it just somethings will have to change...
on the other hand i have an alter ego named sophia...she is a hoot...and if ur thinking im going crazy or have a mental problem well hate to break it to ya i dont...it is an inside joke btw me and some friends while we were drinking and it just popped up...
school sucks at the moment i hate being there it bores me...i reg for western civ I...classes are mondays and wednesdays at 5-615 pm...which is right after high school...but i get to leave the hell hole at 2 to go home then three hours later go to jeff state and take western civ...
o yeah for those of u who dont know i have my tongue pierced it is a 12 gauge...umm i dyed my hair blue and purple this past summer...im letting my hair grow out to which i wish it would grow faster...
and i realize that i have lost touch with some really good old friends...i miss one inparticularly but the last i saw of him he seemed like he had changed and it was more of an annoance change then a good change...and just lately i seem to be getting annoyed a lot quicker then usual...and i have realized that the annoance is comming from so really close friends of mine i dont know what it is but just sometimes things they say or do just annoys me...and i cant keep it bundle up anymore so i let it go on the person that is annoying me at that time....
on other notes i am making admends with pete and we are getting over our arguements...but i still cant figure him out i dont know what he thinks of me but he knows what i think of him...he plays these well i know what i am looking for and i know that what i am lookin for is right in front of my face and then he plays these i hate u shit or things just to get on my nerves bc he knows what pushes my buttons...does that mean something
guys are just confussing they come with there own manual to read and to figure out how to work it...i hate that i wish that sometimes guys will just show their emotions more towards ppl towards things instead of keeping it built up and hiding it...sometimes i just think i want to give up on guys...i know ppl tell me that yeah there is some guy out there for u...i wish he would come sooner...and everytime i meet a guy and get to know him it just feels like he is the one i guess it is just my emotions messing with me...i need to keep a guard up im assuming bc everytime i dont have one i get hurt and i dont understand why...u sit there and talk with a guy and they tell u there perfect gurl and everytime i listen im telling myself inside me im that gurl im the that would do that im the one that would be there...why dont u see it...but i guess i just say that to make it feel like i belong somewhere with someone or i really could be that person and just havent found the right one yet...i dont know i guess i will just live my life the way i have been living it just somethings will have to change...
on the other hand i have an alter ego named sophia...she is a hoot...and if ur thinking im going crazy or have a mental problem well hate to break it to ya i dont...it is an inside joke btw me and some friends while we were drinking and it just popped up...
school sucks at the moment i hate being there it bores me...i reg for western civ I...classes are mondays and wednesdays at 5-615 pm...which is right after high school...but i get to leave the hell hole at 2 to go home then three hours later go to jeff state and take western civ...
o yeah for those of u who dont know i have my tongue pierced it is a 12 gauge...umm i dyed my hair blue and purple this past summer...im letting my hair grow out to which i wish it would grow faster...
and i realize that i have lost touch with some really good old friends...i miss one inparticularly but the last i saw of him he seemed like he had changed and it was more of an annoance change then a good change...and just lately i seem to be getting annoyed a lot quicker then usual...and i have realized that the annoance is comming from so really close friends of mine i dont know what it is but just sometimes things they say or do just annoys me...and i cant keep it bundle up anymore so i let it go on the person that is annoying me at that time....