Confused?
So I realize that I really need to understand that even though life is really hard for me at this time......I just need to help people more.
It was amazing, today I was watching a movie called "Crash" and it amazed me how actually real the situations these people were put in. And the ending was amazing. It could've done without the whole cussing factor but it still was great.
IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PUMPED FOR THE CORPSE BRIDE!!!!!!!Ya buddy!
Its funny you would think that I would be more upset about Kevins whole stand on the fact that he hates the person I changed into and blahhhh blah blah. But you know what Im pretty relieved. I know that I did nothing wrong and he totally freaked out about nothing. Whatever, Kevin wasn't the only person I asked to stop giving me advice and yet he was the ONLY one who STILL forced his cheap advice down my throat. But Im not gonna roll over and take it anymore. Ya Im being mean at times but c'est la vie.
Speaking of life Im so much more confused than I could possibley explain. Its not like half of me is wanting this or that. No its way more complex than that.
On issue Im facing is school- I have so many hard classes this year it isn't even funny, yet due to the recent schedule change I am three weeks behind in a college level english and sociology. Heres my schedule:
1) American History
2) C P English
3) Geometry
4) Anatomy
5) French 3
6) Pyschology
7) Sociology
Ya so I have like the greatest schedule ever, Im really am totally happy with my schedule. Its just hard to focus on all those subjects because I have soooo much homework. Well I auditioned for the play, I got a villager part, which really pissed me off because I know why she put me in one of the lowest parts. She wants me to not only help with the orchestra I helped her get but she also wants me to work on the costumes. I was like ohhhhh. But my mom asked her why she put me in such a small part. And Mrs. Clark told her that I was one of the best auditions and that I really could act. So mom got really pissed and was like she cant do the musical and I can totally see moms point but I really want to at least be in it. I want to help with my orchestra and I want to help make the production great but I really wished I would've at least gotten a girl that follows Gaston around. And then the fact that I really am trying to deal with this year but its stupid drama just keeps making halt a little.
Then there is homecoming-
I really dont know what to do with that, Like the next day is a stake temple trip and dance. And it'll be the first time I will go to the Nauvoo temple. But if I go to homecoming that means that I'll have to listen to the curse words in the songs and see people making babys on the dance floor. So naturally the spirit will leave and I really dont want that to happen. But I only have one senior homecoming and if I miss it I think I will regret it. But heres the other thing I dont have a date which would be pretty awesome but I really dont want to steal anyones date from them. So I mean it really sux.
Then there is the whole Jeff thing-
It is really confusing, because in a lot of ways he still acts like Im his girlfriend and then again he'll do something and suddenly im not. He tells me he still loves me, and that he really is fighting with himself and he misses me more than anything, but hes happy and hes excited to be single. He touches me and looks at me with such love it kills me. But then he speaks and some words are of love and hurt but then some are sarcastic and mean. I dont know what to do
Im really confused and those are not even a fourth of whats going wrong. But I g2g ttyl
It was amazing, today I was watching a movie called "Crash" and it amazed me how actually real the situations these people were put in. And the ending was amazing. It could've done without the whole cussing factor but it still was great.
IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PUMPED FOR THE CORPSE BRIDE!!!!!!!Ya buddy!
Its funny you would think that I would be more upset about Kevins whole stand on the fact that he hates the person I changed into and blahhhh blah blah. But you know what Im pretty relieved. I know that I did nothing wrong and he totally freaked out about nothing. Whatever, Kevin wasn't the only person I asked to stop giving me advice and yet he was the ONLY one who STILL forced his cheap advice down my throat. But Im not gonna roll over and take it anymore. Ya Im being mean at times but c'est la vie.
Speaking of life Im so much more confused than I could possibley explain. Its not like half of me is wanting this or that. No its way more complex than that.
On issue Im facing is school- I have so many hard classes this year it isn't even funny, yet due to the recent schedule change I am three weeks behind in a college level english and sociology. Heres my schedule:
1) American History
2) C P English
3) Geometry
4) Anatomy
5) French 3
6) Pyschology
7) Sociology
Ya so I have like the greatest schedule ever, Im really am totally happy with my schedule. Its just hard to focus on all those subjects because I have soooo much homework. Well I auditioned for the play, I got a villager part, which really pissed me off because I know why she put me in one of the lowest parts. She wants me to not only help with the orchestra I helped her get but she also wants me to work on the costumes. I was like ohhhhh. But my mom asked her why she put me in such a small part. And Mrs. Clark told her that I was one of the best auditions and that I really could act. So mom got really pissed and was like she cant do the musical and I can totally see moms point but I really want to at least be in it. I want to help with my orchestra and I want to help make the production great but I really wished I would've at least gotten a girl that follows Gaston around. And then the fact that I really am trying to deal with this year but its stupid drama just keeps making halt a little.
Then there is homecoming-
I really dont know what to do with that, Like the next day is a stake temple trip and dance. And it'll be the first time I will go to the Nauvoo temple. But if I go to homecoming that means that I'll have to listen to the curse words in the songs and see people making babys on the dance floor. So naturally the spirit will leave and I really dont want that to happen. But I only have one senior homecoming and if I miss it I think I will regret it. But heres the other thing I dont have a date which would be pretty awesome but I really dont want to steal anyones date from them. So I mean it really sux.
Then there is the whole Jeff thing-
It is really confusing, because in a lot of ways he still acts like Im his girlfriend and then again he'll do something and suddenly im not. He tells me he still loves me, and that he really is fighting with himself and he misses me more than anything, but hes happy and hes excited to be single. He touches me and looks at me with such love it kills me. But then he speaks and some words are of love and hurt but then some are sarcastic and mean. I dont know what to do
Im really confused and those are not even a fourth of whats going wrong. But I g2g ttyl