another lonely night
today was stupid. my dad caught me by suprise by waking me up at 9 and telling me that we were going golfing with some other guys. I knew nothing about it, he never told me when we were going or anything, he simply asked yesterday, "hey, maybe we can go golfing tomorrow." I stayed up until 3 in the morning with mike, thinking I would get to sleep in until atleast 11, so that sucked. I am already not a morning person and he got all pissed with me because I was grumpy when he woke me up. We got out on the golf course and I played horrible, and therefore I was upset. How could anybody blame me? how is golf fun when you are doing great one day and you suck the next? He blamed my bad attitude on not getting enough sleep, but I assure you that if I would've played well, he would've been hugging me and laughing with me all the way around. The conclusion is, I am grounded for a few days because I didn't golf well today and I was angry. He doesn't understand why my friends and I stay up so late, and he absolutely HATES IT. Even on days when he is at work and I have a friend over, he gets pissed when we sleep in past 11. UGHHHHH I really can't stand him right now and I really don't like him. It's alright for him and his friends to get plastered and come back home at 3 in the morning though...
I called up becca a little bit ago and we talked for awhile. Her party is going to be great! Should be a lot of fun... After I got off the phone with her, my mom and I went for a walk around the block with my dog. We talked about pretty much anything that crossed our minds, mostly stuff about how stupid my dad is. We just got back about 10 minutes ago, and I tried to call stephanie again, but no answer. I don't know whats going on with her and I, it's been like 5 days since we've talked and the last time we hung out was like 3 weeks ago. I really want to get to know her better, but I know that every time I try to get to know a girl better, I am heartbroken. I'm not saying something isn't there, I'm just saying that it being summer, it's going to take a little bit more effort to keep things going good. Now I guess she is seeing another guy, and although I feel selfish for worrying about it, I want her to be happy even it means it won't be with me...
And so I sit here in front of my computer, VENTing about my day, alone, with no one to talk to.
I guess it's just going to be another lonely night...
I called up becca a little bit ago and we talked for awhile. Her party is going to be great! Should be a lot of fun... After I got off the phone with her, my mom and I went for a walk around the block with my dog. We talked about pretty much anything that crossed our minds, mostly stuff about how stupid my dad is. We just got back about 10 minutes ago, and I tried to call stephanie again, but no answer. I don't know whats going on with her and I, it's been like 5 days since we've talked and the last time we hung out was like 3 weeks ago. I really want to get to know her better, but I know that every time I try to get to know a girl better, I am heartbroken. I'm not saying something isn't there, I'm just saying that it being summer, it's going to take a little bit more effort to keep things going good. Now I guess she is seeing another guy, and although I feel selfish for worrying about it, I want her to be happy even it means it won't be with me...
And so I sit here in front of my computer, VENTing about my day, alone, with no one to talk to.
I guess it's just going to be another lonely night...