never ending repetition
lately thats all my life has been, never ending repetiton. for the most part its awesome but i found out one thing for sure. that there is no one out there that is a true friend. basically every single person out there only cares about themselves and thats it. ive learned the hard way many times by getting screwed out of money and seeing that its hard to find actual people out there who have good intentions towards OTHER people and not themselves...well besides that i got a new job at the Palace and I can for sure get a job for UPS starting at 11.70 an hour which is fucking good but i dont think id be able to do it :( hopefully i could make some extra money since i owe 2500 for my insurance and shit...ive been hanging out with new different people hoping i will find someone with good intentions that dont screw their own friends over and actually cares... also ive been trying to get 15-20 hours of drum practice in a week to get better fast, cause all i want is to start a good band and just play alot of shows and have somethin to look forward to and make me feel good inside because music is everything especially music that gives u mixed emotions and somehow that u can relate to....so far me Marc and Nick having been practicing looking for a bassist and vocalist but for right now were just trying things out...
my mind has been fuckin with me non-stop lately and i dont know what to do... ive been reliving the past through my dreams and seeing some pretty weird shit and thinkin of how one day i want to make it big somehow somewhere but for now i just want to be in a good band...
i cant wait for the semester to get over in a few weeks its about damn time...
next summer im definetly going to make worthwhile and exciting...