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every day it gets closer to the day that i leave. i should be moving in homecoming weekend. my mom is ok with it now. she knows where i am going and told me that she wasnt going to stop me and she wasnt going to have me listed as a run away, which is good. you can tell that she is upset through some of the comments that she comes up with but i can understand that. she took it as i was leaving her, i had to explain thats not what i was doing, i just cant be here anymore. she clarified that the house was open if i wanted to come and stay the weekend or the night, or even to move back in. i wont be moving back in but i may stay the night every now and then.
my sister is pissing me off even more. i dont have to deal with her that much longer though.
i havnt heard from chris... he hasnt called... he hasnt e-mailed... he hasnt updated. well he has e-mailed me a couple times but then he sent one that was like i wont be using this sn anymore ill call you blah blah blah or e-mail you when i can.
im still waiting on a letter from my grandparents. hoping that they send me money for a car. errrr.... i hate waiting.
i have been feeling really weird now. like one minute i will be really happy and enjoying myself in what ever i am doing but then someone will say something or someoen will do something... fuck sometimes no one has to do anything.... then all of a suddan i will just be really depressed and i just want to go home and do nothing. go home and listen to my music to drown away all the pain. it never works though, the lyrics often get me asking questions.
"here have a fucking cookie"
my sister is pissing me off even more. i dont have to deal with her that much longer though.
i havnt heard from chris... he hasnt called... he hasnt e-mailed... he hasnt updated. well he has e-mailed me a couple times but then he sent one that was like i wont be using this sn anymore ill call you blah blah blah or e-mail you when i can.
im still waiting on a letter from my grandparents. hoping that they send me money for a car. errrr.... i hate waiting.
i have been feeling really weird now. like one minute i will be really happy and enjoying myself in what ever i am doing but then someone will say something or someoen will do something... fuck sometimes no one has to do anything.... then all of a suddan i will just be really depressed and i just want to go home and do nothing. go home and listen to my music to drown away all the pain. it never works though, the lyrics often get me asking questions.
"here have a fucking cookie"