things are starting to slip again...
well once again my life is starting to silp again.me and my girlfriend aren't doing so well and no my ex-friend hates me.that all started yesterday when her boyfriend came to school and told me that i need to back off and that she thinks i'm stalking her.isn't that messed up?so i said screw it and i just brushed it off.well after her boyfriend left she tried to talk to me but i just took some advice from my friend trey and i just ignored her.so yea now she hates me,its kinda funney today in class she thought i was staring at her and she got all pissed off at me.i know i shouldn't think its funney but i really do.so yea now to my girlfriend,well as you all know we've been going out for almost a month now and things have been going great...until now.
i'm starting to think that she still likes her ex-boyfriend tommy.she swears that she loves me but i don't know.its just that every other girl i've dated always ends up screwing me over and i hope to god linsey doesn't do that to me.on wensday after the element tommy came up to her and said he needed to talk to her and after that he called her a nickname that he used to call her when they were going out.well when i asked her what tommy had said she just kept saying nothing and that started to piss me off cause i knew she was holding something back from me.well finally she had told me that he had called her that nickname from when they were going out.well then i asked her what it was and she didn't want to tell me,she told me that it hurts every time he mentions it.at that point i was extreamly pissed.because at that point i knew she stilled cared about tommy and thats when i was hurt.i didn't know what to do so i did the worst thing i could have done,i cut myself and i'm very dissapointed in myself cause i havent done that in over a year.so now things seem to be back to normal or at least thats what she thinks.i still have doubts in my mind about her and as much as i want to block that out of my mind i can't because i have been screwed over by so many girls.you know to tell you the truth for a split second i thought about breaking up with her on wensday but something kept me from doing that.i still haven't figured out what kept me form breaking up with her but it was definatly something.i do want to work things out with her but i really don't know if i can or not.i wnat to believe her that she loves me but a part of me really doubts that she does.im gonna try to work things out with her and hopefully things will work out in the end but i think its gonna take me a long time to except the fact that she does love me and that shes not gonna go back to tommy.but when that ime comes i think things will be alot better for us and mabye we can last for a real long time.well this entry has gotten way to long so i need to stop for now.i guess wish me luck on my struggle with linsey.
l8r,
Max
i'm starting to think that she still likes her ex-boyfriend tommy.she swears that she loves me but i don't know.its just that every other girl i've dated always ends up screwing me over and i hope to god linsey doesn't do that to me.on wensday after the element tommy came up to her and said he needed to talk to her and after that he called her a nickname that he used to call her when they were going out.well when i asked her what tommy had said she just kept saying nothing and that started to piss me off cause i knew she was holding something back from me.well finally she had told me that he had called her that nickname from when they were going out.well then i asked her what it was and she didn't want to tell me,she told me that it hurts every time he mentions it.at that point i was extreamly pissed.because at that point i knew she stilled cared about tommy and thats when i was hurt.i didn't know what to do so i did the worst thing i could have done,i cut myself and i'm very dissapointed in myself cause i havent done that in over a year.so now things seem to be back to normal or at least thats what she thinks.i still have doubts in my mind about her and as much as i want to block that out of my mind i can't because i have been screwed over by so many girls.you know to tell you the truth for a split second i thought about breaking up with her on wensday but something kept me from doing that.i still haven't figured out what kept me form breaking up with her but it was definatly something.i do want to work things out with her but i really don't know if i can or not.i wnat to believe her that she loves me but a part of me really doubts that she does.im gonna try to work things out with her and hopefully things will work out in the end but i think its gonna take me a long time to except the fact that she does love me and that shes not gonna go back to tommy.but when that ime comes i think things will be alot better for us and mabye we can last for a real long time.well this entry has gotten way to long so i need to stop for now.i guess wish me luck on my struggle with linsey.
l8r,
Max