Humm. Hmmm. Hmmm.

[distractogirl]

Not much has been happening recently. I applied for a job, but apparently don't have enough experience so I didn't get the job this time. Ah, well, one more step towards a job that will help refill my bank account. Despite the fact that I am actually motivated towards getting a job (and something else that I'll tell you about when I've actually sorted it out), I really just want a holiday. Despite my lack of social life, and working life I'm feeling really very stressed at the moment. I haven't been sleeping at all well recently, and the contribution that my father has been making has been reduced to what can only be described as nothing. I used to have the occasional bit of help when making the dinner, but now I'm doing everything. I don't really mind that as such, since it's such a small increase in what I've been doing. The thing that is causing stress is the fact that my father's health is not worse at the moment. He seems to think that he's going to get better, and I have to believe that because I can't fit the alternative into my conciousness at the moment. Of course, my subconcious can do what it likes, and frequently does, and I think that may be the reason for my lack of sleep over the last few weeks. I'm just... so tired.

Anyway. Jslayeruk is back in London, as will paranoid_blonde be soon, I believe, so it will be nice to see the girls, if only for a short time, and if they have time for me of course! *Yawns* OK. I must go and make the dinner shortly. And then there is apple pie for pudding. Although I probably should have gone and got some ice cream, because we're running out. And the apple pie should have had a couple more minutes in the oven, which I originally intended on, and then got nervous of burning it, so I took it out. I should have learnt to trust my instincts by now, don't you think?

Bye now...