now what?

[distractiion]

And they sat in her room. And talked about what had happened. And tried to make sense of how something so perfect could have gone so wrong. And made a decision neither ever imagined would have to be made. And cried as they came to terms with the way life was going to be. And hoped individually the other would change their mind. And knew even if they did it would only be a matter of time. And then they would back in this room, or his, making the same decisions. And they wondered if these were decisions or mistakes. And thought quickly of all the belongings they'd traded over the years. And agreed to trade back. And lied and said they'd remain friends. And agreed on how false that statement really was. And had hearts too heavy to let them stand. And neither wanted to get going. And broke the rules and hugged. And kissed. And went too far. And hurt more from it. And knew that never should have happened. And wanted it to happen again. And couldn't let it. And tried to picture how life was going to be. And couldn't get past Monday. And had to let go of the routine they'd known. And felt sick with worry and anticipation. And hoped the friends they'd abandoned would take them back. And knew it would be no easy task. And he finally made an excuse to leave. And she wasn't about to object. And neither belonged to the other anymore.

And it was the last time an "and" was had between them.