this should be so easy...so why is it so hard...
soo i move in to tjs 2morra, i should be excited and dont get me wrong i am but i also have this awful sense of guilt of leaving my mom alone. I know shell be fine but i just keep thinking of her all alone and it just makes me so sad. If anything happens to her know one will know...i know shes upset about this whole thing and it just makes it worse. Tonite the phone rang and she jumped up so fast 2 get it hoping it was my brother and it wasnt. My brother left too, i duno why i feel like this is all on my shoulders, maybe b/c everything usually is. Its like when my parents first got divorced and my dad was alone i hated to leave him, just hated it. Ill just have to hope that she comes to like and enjoy living alone, or that she meets someone so that she isnt alone. and ill just have to visit alot...grr i just dont know...i know im always going to have that little pang of guilt...