why is everything falling away from me...
I want this to be the summer to rival all summer and so far ive done nothing...and its sucked...ive had a few eventful days but not many. Problem number one...the job situation...i already have 2 jobs and im not making any money, so ive been trying to find another one and theyve all fallen thru...my dad knew someone who was looking for a receptionist at their little doctors office, nope that didnt happen, applied at winchester hospital, nothing happened there either...i got all excited thinking i had found a job yesterday working at residential with mentally ill adolescents nope...i wasnt required to do the last part of the training for my other job and what do you know thats the one training i need for residential now im back at the beginning with 2 jobs that pay nothing and the summer that i was supposed to spend saving up money for rent and a new car is slowly wasting away...and what do i have to show for it...a measley 200 dollars in a bank account...now to top all this off as i mentioned before my grandfather is selling the camp...ive tried to act like its not happening but honestly i just cannot fathom what i will do when its gone, i just cant even comprehend that right now. Ive had that place since i was born and now its just going to be gone...a fuck it i hate this. and not that this makes honestly any sense at all but it is bothering the shit out of me that they tore down dsh to make way for some fuckin condos...blah i need to go get ready for work and how great is this i end one job at four and start the other at four....just wondering how that is going to work out...