I hope you had the time of your life...
How do you say goodbye to something so important to you that you cant even put a monetary value on it. How do you just completely give up something that has been in your life since you were born, a place that is involved in every single happy memory you've ever had. Had do you just walk away from a place that is your whole life, your happy place...how do you do it??? Im just trying so hard to figure out how i am ever going to be able to do this. my cabin, my little heaven here on earth is being sold. I thought i had more time, i thought that even though my grandfather continually brought up selling that he couldnt because there is just to much of everybody there. I thought maybe he could atleast wait until i started making good money and could buy it myself. I always invisioned being able to take my children there and letting them share all the amazing things that Dead River Maine has to offer. My family built that place completely on their own every piece of wood, every nail all ours. I wouldnt have met a lot of my family if it wasnt for this place...4 little cabins lined up in a row. I only see my cousins from california when im there and most of my other cousins too. I cant even put into words how much that place means to me. I just want to show the world how fuckin special this place is but then be able to keep it all to myself. No words can describe the beauty of the sky above this place with no lights at all to ruin the sparkle of the stars, the smell of the place, the feelings everything...and thats all that will be left, a few fading pictures and memories. I just cant breathe thinking about it, my chest tightens up and my heart starts to hurt. I would chose my little cottage in the woods over a trip anywhere in the whole world. Nothing could ever be even a close match to this place. I just cant even come to grips with all this, and i just cant even begin to fathom what i am going to do when this becomes a reality, when we no longer hold the key to this heaven...when the big green gate locks for the last time and we now become the people who must obey the no trespassing signs....i already feel like im dying and my grandfather hasnt even sold it yet...what am i going to do...