oh why cant i be what you need...
so an update is in order i guess based on the sole fact that i havent posted in a while. Nothing much has been going on. Had the gang over last weekend and had a wicked good time...worked a lot basically just reticketing bbw products which is not fun at all, tj n i got a hamster (Eisenhower) and he is so very entertaining. Not enjoyin living at central very much but who does anyway.
now its time to vent b/c this has been bothering me for a long time and im not feeling any better about it...
I hate knowing that i was second...it sucks and it hurts like hell...not that its your fault i should have never asked you in the first place...what was i thinking...that id feel good about the response...no answer you could have given would have made me feel better...i think about it constantly every nite before i go to bed...what if...what if things had been different...i just feel like im some lame second rate copy of what you really wanted and it sucks...it absolutely sucks. Time heals all wounds but i think this one is going to sit a fester for a long time :(
now its time to vent b/c this has been bothering me for a long time and im not feeling any better about it...
I hate knowing that i was second...it sucks and it hurts like hell...not that its your fault i should have never asked you in the first place...what was i thinking...that id feel good about the response...no answer you could have given would have made me feel better...i think about it constantly every nite before i go to bed...what if...what if things had been different...i just feel like im some lame second rate copy of what you really wanted and it sucks...it absolutely sucks. Time heals all wounds but i think this one is going to sit a fester for a long time :(