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soooo today wasnt too bad...work was kinda boring...nobody was really there...so me n maura sat out back n ate chinese food...im really guna miss that chick wen she goes bak 2 New Orleans...she helped me unbury my car and then i drove her and helped her unbury hers. Santa was next to us unburying his lol.
SO i got a lovely phone call from my mom...my uncle ted is dying...they thought that his cancer wasnt too bad and he was actually doing good but hes not anymore...they moved a hospital bed to his house so he can die at home...i didnt get to see him this summer because he needed 2 get all his cancer treatments down in florida...Im never going to see him again and i didnt even get to say good bye just like with granny...I know that this is really awful to think of at a time like this but there is going to be no one to use their cabin anymore...which means they are going to sell it because all their children live too far away to get any use out of it...(maryland and California) and that will give my grandfather the incentive to sell ours...bc there will be strangers next store and ill lose my most favorite place in the entire world. Its like a double blow and it sucks...the only reason i ever saw my cousins sara n cody is wen they came to visit in Maine bc they live 2 far away (cali) for us to see any other time. I wont even be able to go 2 his funeral when he dies cuz they are all the way in florida...
why do things like this have to happen...why cant people just live til they are really old and then just die in their sleep...y do bad things have to happen to them like fuckin cancer ravaging their entire body until there is nothing left...And why do people with cancer get better rite before they die...so there is this little glimmer of hope that maybe theyll get thru this, that maybe just maybe theyll be ok and then WHAMMMMM its like no im just fuckin with you they are dying and there is nothing in this world that you can do about it except sit here like a fuckin idiot and wait for them to die...and you have to be thousands of miles away so you cant even comfort the people that need it.
LIfe is just fuckin bullshit...
SO i got a lovely phone call from my mom...my uncle ted is dying...they thought that his cancer wasnt too bad and he was actually doing good but hes not anymore...they moved a hospital bed to his house so he can die at home...i didnt get to see him this summer because he needed 2 get all his cancer treatments down in florida...Im never going to see him again and i didnt even get to say good bye just like with granny...I know that this is really awful to think of at a time like this but there is going to be no one to use their cabin anymore...which means they are going to sell it because all their children live too far away to get any use out of it...(maryland and California) and that will give my grandfather the incentive to sell ours...bc there will be strangers next store and ill lose my most favorite place in the entire world. Its like a double blow and it sucks...the only reason i ever saw my cousins sara n cody is wen they came to visit in Maine bc they live 2 far away (cali) for us to see any other time. I wont even be able to go 2 his funeral when he dies cuz they are all the way in florida...
why do things like this have to happen...why cant people just live til they are really old and then just die in their sleep...y do bad things have to happen to them like fuckin cancer ravaging their entire body until there is nothing left...And why do people with cancer get better rite before they die...so there is this little glimmer of hope that maybe theyll get thru this, that maybe just maybe theyll be ok and then WHAMMMMM its like no im just fuckin with you they are dying and there is nothing in this world that you can do about it except sit here like a fuckin idiot and wait for them to die...and you have to be thousands of miles away so you cant even comfort the people that need it.
LIfe is just fuckin bullshit...