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distortedcanvas

Maybe I really am crazy

Oct 15, 2008 00:39

Staying in the loft for the rest of the week. Not that this is anything new, but this time I'm actually planning it. I need to figure some stuff out.

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icouldtellyouto October 14 2008, 15:18:52 UTC

Hey, if you need anything just let me know. You've got me worried a bit.

[locked] distortedcanvas October 14 2008, 15:21:30 UTC

I keep feeling like there's something wrong with me. There's some weird stuff going on, Sarah. I don't know what to do.

[locked] icouldtellyouto October 14 2008, 15:26:33 UTC

What? Why would you think there's something wrong with you?

Re: [locked] distortedcanvas October 14 2008, 18:34:16 UTC

I don't want to freak you out. You're one of the few people in the city who knows me well. I trust you, but I really don't want to scare you away.

[locked] icouldtellyouto October 14 2008, 18:37:26 UTC

Isaac, you're not going to scare me away.

I know about the drugs, and I'm still here.

I want to be here for you still.

Re: [locked] distortedcanvas October 14 2008, 18:49:25 UTC

Wait. You know?

How... how long have you known?

[locked] icouldtellyouto October 14 2008, 18:52:01 UTC

I feel horrible telling you this online Isaac, but I've known for a while? You hide it well, but there were times when it just didn't feel right, and there are other signs too.

I didn't want you to feel like you had to hide it anymore than you already do, so I just worried in silence.

Re: [locked] distortedcanvas October 15 2008, 08:31:05 UTC

Well apparently I'm not hiding it anymore. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to worry you, but I need it, Sarah, I'm not a junkie, I'm not, but I need things to make sense. And this does.

[locked] icouldtellyouto October 16 2008, 01:41:29 UTC

Isaac I trust you, and I know you didn't mean to worry me. If you hadn't been trying to hide it I would've been more concerned.

We all have secrets we're not comfortable with, and I wish I could help you make sense of things. I wish I could help you. I want to be there for you, but I'm not going to push either.

Re: [locked] distortedcanvas October 16 2008, 14:28:41 UTC

Just... I don't know what's going on with me right now. I need to talk to you, but I don't want to do it over the internet but I honestly don't know if I'm ready for that. Could I meet with you in maybe a week or two? I feel like I need to get my head sorted. I don't want to worry anybody, and I feel like shit that I am.

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