Hawaii
So i'm here in Honolulu, HI, (Hickam AFB to be more exact) and I can't wrap my mind around the idea that this is where I am gonna be for the next three years, let alone the idea that I'm enlisted until 2015,and what i will do once I get out.
I'm taking several online college courses and attempting to CLEP everything I can. I refuse to allow myself to be pulled into the lower levels of intellect that so many around me are drawn to. It's almost like they go on auto-pilot for some 3-25 years, depending on how rocky the road is. Truth be told I can't hold any offense of that kind against really any government employee, it seems like it's almost a defense mechanism to survive in the overly redundant, employee hunting bureaucracy we have. It's insane to the point where persons over exposed and less strong minded have permanent warp and twisted personalities and social irregularities.
i'm writing more and more, just trying to get everything out like a boy with a bucket trying to empty the titanic as it goes belly up. It seems like the best method and medicine to help me deal with this environment. I find myself asking again and again how these people can exist, how can such being so incapable of thought and barely able enough to feed, clothe, and fuck can exist. I keep hearing the voice of an old roommate in new orleans that said " never forget, it takes all kind of people to make this world go 'round." But i still fail to comprehend their existence. I mean truthfully half of these poor souls could have either barely passed highschool, or just failed to see outside of their own shallow understanding of the world around them. Very enlightening I must say..
Work is really only satisfying when I'm out working on the airplane with one or two people. I don't care for more than that much anymore and I really miss self medicating. I'll be done soon enough though so i guess that's relief enough.
I'm taking several online college courses and attempting to CLEP everything I can. I refuse to allow myself to be pulled into the lower levels of intellect that so many around me are drawn to. It's almost like they go on auto-pilot for some 3-25 years, depending on how rocky the road is. Truth be told I can't hold any offense of that kind against really any government employee, it seems like it's almost a defense mechanism to survive in the overly redundant, employee hunting bureaucracy we have. It's insane to the point where persons over exposed and less strong minded have permanent warp and twisted personalities and social irregularities.
i'm writing more and more, just trying to get everything out like a boy with a bucket trying to empty the titanic as it goes belly up. It seems like the best method and medicine to help me deal with this environment. I find myself asking again and again how these people can exist, how can such being so incapable of thought and barely able enough to feed, clothe, and fuck can exist. I keep hearing the voice of an old roommate in new orleans that said " never forget, it takes all kind of people to make this world go 'round." But i still fail to comprehend their existence. I mean truthfully half of these poor souls could have either barely passed highschool, or just failed to see outside of their own shallow understanding of the world around them. Very enlightening I must say..
Work is really only satisfying when I'm out working on the airplane with one or two people. I don't care for more than that much anymore and I really miss self medicating. I'll be done soon enough though so i guess that's relief enough.