falling short
Ok, so lately i've been extra worried about perfection. I always get like this when mom and dad are about to come. I get upset about everything and oh my gonizo, i gained .3 pounds! i hate this, why do i force myself to be perfect for them when they inevitably won't even notice me anyways? I know they'll talk and comfort claire all weekend and work with her on homework, why do i care anyways? I get a 4.0 and they're like, thats nice.. i gotta get off the phone, claire has the same free period and i want to talk to her. Is it that they just don't worry about me or they don't care or what? I feel so alone. I need to stop this cyclical issue because it's gonna get me nowhere...maybe i'll pray, i don't usually pray much, but i'm clear outa ideas myself...