Automaton To Sadness To Relief
i woke up this morning and thought of my special someone. it was a sweet moment and a horny moment, but that subsided when i realized that i was late for work. i couldn't put on the speedo, it wouldn't fit due to my growth, so i had to wear my red swim trunks. i grabbed the box of cinnamon toast crunch and a chocolate milk and ran out the door. so, i'm stuffing food into my mouth and drinking the milk. i found out that the taste doesn't go too well. its just sugar on sugar. needless to say i swam a few more laps than i'm used to before my shift to get rid of the residual sugar high.
i had to instruct the level one beginners with kelly today. there was was this two year old boy who kept calling me tyler for some reason even though i tried to instruct him how to say my name. anyways, instead of saying tyler, he would say tie ore. it was really cute and took a liking to me. so now, i have a new two year old friend. score! he was the best out of all of them but he got cold really easily so i had to help him towel off and wait until his mom came to pick him up. in the meanwhile, he played with his toy airplane. that made me thinking about having a boy. for a few minutes i thought of a few names.
after work, i come home and take a brief shower, just rubbing down my body from the chlorine. then i go on the computer and wrote some entries and replies. i talked to my friend who i had hurt and mentioned in a previous entry. we talked things out and we're on better footing now. i asked them if it would be best if i just left them alone. however, they said it may be better, but they would miss me so much. that made my heart hurt. at least things are better between us now.
i went running with my brother since he took half a day off. while running, i kept smelling this smell that gave me a boner. my brother kept laughing at me because i was running as if i had a pole up my ass. however, the pole was in front of me, not behind. oh well. yay for random boners.
my friend calls me up crying. her fiancee had died in a freak motorcycle accident. my heart fell, my mood waned and sadness filled me. my heart went out for her and the respective families. i'm going to go to the wake this weekend. hopefully, i would be shoulder to cry on a strong entity there among all the sadness. she loved him so much and i can't bear the thought of losing someone like that. as stoic as i am at times, i would be crushed if that happened to me.
now i'm feeling relieved because my special someone came on. well, they're off right now, but will soon be on again. since the phone call this is the first time i wasn't sullen. my special someone is a lifter of spirits. for that, i'm very grateful.
peace. t^b
i had to instruct the level one beginners with kelly today. there was was this two year old boy who kept calling me tyler for some reason even though i tried to instruct him how to say my name. anyways, instead of saying tyler, he would say tie ore. it was really cute and took a liking to me. so now, i have a new two year old friend. score! he was the best out of all of them but he got cold really easily so i had to help him towel off and wait until his mom came to pick him up. in the meanwhile, he played with his toy airplane. that made me thinking about having a boy. for a few minutes i thought of a few names.
after work, i come home and take a brief shower, just rubbing down my body from the chlorine. then i go on the computer and wrote some entries and replies. i talked to my friend who i had hurt and mentioned in a previous entry. we talked things out and we're on better footing now. i asked them if it would be best if i just left them alone. however, they said it may be better, but they would miss me so much. that made my heart hurt. at least things are better between us now.
i went running with my brother since he took half a day off. while running, i kept smelling this smell that gave me a boner. my brother kept laughing at me because i was running as if i had a pole up my ass. however, the pole was in front of me, not behind. oh well. yay for random boners.
my friend calls me up crying. her fiancee had died in a freak motorcycle accident. my heart fell, my mood waned and sadness filled me. my heart went out for her and the respective families. i'm going to go to the wake this weekend. hopefully, i would be shoulder to cry on a strong entity there among all the sadness. she loved him so much and i can't bear the thought of losing someone like that. as stoic as i am at times, i would be crushed if that happened to me.
now i'm feeling relieved because my special someone came on. well, they're off right now, but will soon be on again. since the phone call this is the first time i wasn't sullen. my special someone is a lifter of spirits. for that, i'm very grateful.
peace. t^b