So young, yet so old... yet still younger.
At the aiport... again.
Her piercing eyes stared out from under the brim of her white hat... 1 foot away from me, but lightyears apart. As we sat idly on an unused baggage cart, sipping our French Vanilla coffees, we spoke of simple things with enormous intruige. She lowered her eyes, vulnerable for a only a breath as she tried to decide for that moment whether she wanted to be the grown woman she imagined herself, or the 17 year old that she was. She was classically torn between brilliant perception and unfair projection. I was amazed at how easily she was able to take apart a person or a situation with perfect articulation one moment, then show an arrogant, detached persona that only a teenager could project the next.
After we said our goodbyes, she whipped around as quickly as anyone could have, surely forgetting I ever existed seconds later. Realizing this, I smiled, as I walked out of the terminal. I realized that you learn something about yourself when you observe other people. I know that when I meet people and get to know them, they stay in my head. I am changed by them, if even slightly, whether I like it or not. I cannot fathom those who can just shut that off, that connection, that feeling you have when you meet someone, or engage them. I can't imagine being able to forget all that with a simple spin of the body. And yet for many, that's understood, and even more, it's encouraged.
This little girl had grown up so fast... she carried herself like a woman. But every once in a while, you'd see that girl who just wanted to be taken care of... who just wanted mommy and daddy. But in the end, none of that mattered, for she turned and walked away, forgetting not just me, but everyone she had made a "connection" with while she was here. Please, won't someone tell me how to do this... it would make so many things so much easier. Maybe we're not all meant to do the easy thing....
Thanks for reading again guys. I guess I feel it's very important that I put this stuff into words. These surreal moments in time, moments that I never thought I would experience. I've had some many of those moments on this movie. Tonight (or rather this morning) was no different. Sitting and chatting with a movie star on an AirTram Airways cart outside of the terminal drinking coffee and watching the sun come up. Then watching as that movie star went movie star, and turned her back forever. It's really interesting. That's been the best part of this movie, just seeing the psychology of it all... seeing what makes people tick. I have learned more about people from this movie than I ever have in a 5 weeks span in my entire life. Amazing stuff. Thanks for listenning everyone.
Her piercing eyes stared out from under the brim of her white hat... 1 foot away from me, but lightyears apart. As we sat idly on an unused baggage cart, sipping our French Vanilla coffees, we spoke of simple things with enormous intruige. She lowered her eyes, vulnerable for a only a breath as she tried to decide for that moment whether she wanted to be the grown woman she imagined herself, or the 17 year old that she was. She was classically torn between brilliant perception and unfair projection. I was amazed at how easily she was able to take apart a person or a situation with perfect articulation one moment, then show an arrogant, detached persona that only a teenager could project the next.
After we said our goodbyes, she whipped around as quickly as anyone could have, surely forgetting I ever existed seconds later. Realizing this, I smiled, as I walked out of the terminal. I realized that you learn something about yourself when you observe other people. I know that when I meet people and get to know them, they stay in my head. I am changed by them, if even slightly, whether I like it or not. I cannot fathom those who can just shut that off, that connection, that feeling you have when you meet someone, or engage them. I can't imagine being able to forget all that with a simple spin of the body. And yet for many, that's understood, and even more, it's encouraged.
This little girl had grown up so fast... she carried herself like a woman. But every once in a while, you'd see that girl who just wanted to be taken care of... who just wanted mommy and daddy. But in the end, none of that mattered, for she turned and walked away, forgetting not just me, but everyone she had made a "connection" with while she was here. Please, won't someone tell me how to do this... it would make so many things so much easier. Maybe we're not all meant to do the easy thing....
Thanks for reading again guys. I guess I feel it's very important that I put this stuff into words. These surreal moments in time, moments that I never thought I would experience. I've had some many of those moments on this movie. Tonight (or rather this morning) was no different. Sitting and chatting with a movie star on an AirTram Airways cart outside of the terminal drinking coffee and watching the sun come up. Then watching as that movie star went movie star, and turned her back forever. It's really interesting. That's been the best part of this movie, just seeing the psychology of it all... seeing what makes people tick. I have learned more about people from this movie than I ever have in a 5 weeks span in my entire life. Amazing stuff. Thanks for listenning everyone.