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I'm sure some of you've heard about Joel. God I'm so fucking down about the whole thing. =\
Atleast we got our misunderstandings taken care of. I hadn't talked to him in a few years since then, and part of me feels like I'm not allowed to feel sad or cry because of it. When I had heard about it from Tom I thought it was all just a big joke, which makes me feel like even more shit now. Fuck, and I had to make the platters for his funeral. I don't know if it's really hit me yet. I've been spending the past few days trying hard not to think about it.
I don't know.
This just fucking sucks.
Atleast we got our misunderstandings taken care of. I hadn't talked to him in a few years since then, and part of me feels like I'm not allowed to feel sad or cry because of it. When I had heard about it from Tom I thought it was all just a big joke, which makes me feel like even more shit now. Fuck, and I had to make the platters for his funeral. I don't know if it's really hit me yet. I've been spending the past few days trying hard not to think about it.
I don't know.
This just fucking sucks.