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I just can't believe it is over. 3 years of being with Anthony is over. I am not complaining that it is, it needed to be done with. I put up with more than I ever should of. I mean you can't expect me to just forget about him after being with him pretty much everyday for 3 years of my life. We went through a lot of ups and downs.
From the start of our relationship, I pretty much pursued him, he was getting over someone and we just kept hanging out and eventually he asked me out. I mean, he used to talk to his ex behind my back. I got over it and for so long I just spent all my time with him and ONLY him. It was like I lost who I was and forgot about everyone else that mattered. I was so focused on US and that's it. I let my relationship become my world and it ruined me in the end. It destroyed everything we had . When I started going out with my friends over these past few months often he was jealous and tried to make me feel bad about wanting to go out.
He wanted me all to himself and I couldn't handle it, at all, not when he hung out with his friends whenever he wanted.
I always supported him.
I always pushed him to make his life better.
I helped him get his license.
I drove him around for over 2 years, everywhere.
I became sick of the fucking bullshit, of him trying to tell me what to do and wanting to keep me away from my friends. If he TRULY loved me, he would compromise and let me enjoy my time with my friends. I am 22 years old, I don't need that fucking jealous bullshit.
I am so glad it is over with, yes I am sad and heartbroken but I am also RELIEVED! I do not know when I will ever be ready for another relationship. I am fucking scared shitless of it turning out like that again. I cried for so long wishing I could get out but he threated me and made me feel like I was worthless and I fucking hate him for that.
He hated me for my eating disorder, he used it against me so many times. Fuck him.
I am me, I know that I did fucking everything for that kid.
It's over and I am moving on for good....I will never let someone control me, ever.
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From the start of our relationship, I pretty much pursued him, he was getting over someone and we just kept hanging out and eventually he asked me out. I mean, he used to talk to his ex behind my back. I got over it and for so long I just spent all my time with him and ONLY him. It was like I lost who I was and forgot about everyone else that mattered. I was so focused on US and that's it. I let my relationship become my world and it ruined me in the end. It destroyed everything we had . When I started going out with my friends over these past few months often he was jealous and tried to make me feel bad about wanting to go out.
He wanted me all to himself and I couldn't handle it, at all, not when he hung out with his friends whenever he wanted.
I always supported him.
I always pushed him to make his life better.
I helped him get his license.
I drove him around for over 2 years, everywhere.
I became sick of the fucking bullshit, of him trying to tell me what to do and wanting to keep me away from my friends. If he TRULY loved me, he would compromise and let me enjoy my time with my friends. I am 22 years old, I don't need that fucking jealous bullshit.
I am so glad it is over with, yes I am sad and heartbroken but I am also RELIEVED! I do not know when I will ever be ready for another relationship. I am fucking scared shitless of it turning out like that again. I cried for so long wishing I could get out but he threated me and made me feel like I was worthless and I fucking hate him for that.
He hated me for my eating disorder, he used it against me so many times. Fuck him.
I am me, I know that I did fucking everything for that kid.
It's over and I am moving on for good....I will never let someone control me, ever.
<3