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[dissolventirely]

this whole year my life has been dedicated to him, whether it's me loving him,wanting to hate him, or feeling lost without him, he's been everything. and sometimes i feel like i'm a mess and pathetic for caring so much about someone, but for all the pain i went through i would never take it back. i don't want to go back to the way things were, i don't think we ever had the same mindset to really survive a relationship. Learning how to deal wtih eachother and love eachother in every way has been a huge lesson and struggle. i don't know how things will end up, but i've never felt someone to be such a necessity in my life before. and i understand him and the way he behaves and i have never had someone mean so much to me.

i hope this year can be a little more uplifting, that i can accomplish more and with friends who appreciate eachother.