May 20, 2005 09:04
the beach was beautiful.
spending time with him was wonderful as always.
and the attraction between us was overwhelming and had my mind in a different place.
i know you are right, and i know that you want the best but i obviously also wanted that to happen.
i made it clear once again that there was not a way for me to remain if his choice was her. i don't know what will come of that and it scares/hurts me.