Just thinking dont read haha.
I think to much. Its worse lately. All the stupid things ive done in the past are starting to actually catch up with me. I've missed so much in my short 18 years of life that i cant get back. Things other kids have gotten to do that i wont have the chance to make up. (I'm pretty much the only one who understands what im saying) This year will be what either messes up my life or saves it. And honestly i dont trust my self enough to know ill do the right thing. I know I'm the only one to blame.
On another note I pretty much lost most my friends because of a petty fight that i really dont understand or drugs. An immature friend of mine is trying to ruin my friendship with others just because she dicided not to like me anymore. She says im talking bad about her but the truth is i havent even talked to anyone she knows for months now. I'm tired of the lying and the drama. I find myself blaming others or where I live but maybe its not that at all.
For a long time I was hoping to move to run away from my problem that maybe people in other areas will be better.
I remeber first moving to this area and being made fun of because my parents didnt have as much money as the rest of the kids. I blamed it on the area but maybe its just people? Maybe its me?
I still hope to move and run away maybe start a new life.
A funny thing is that we all know I hardly went to school but after this year im starting to see what people thought of me. I thought they all hated me but I have people coming up to me telling me how cool they thought i was and how they wished they had, had the balls to come up and talk to me and ask me to hangout or people I have no idea who they are come up and know so much about me its weird. etc.
Thats life. I've made a lot of mistakes...
On another note I pretty much lost most my friends because of a petty fight that i really dont understand or drugs. An immature friend of mine is trying to ruin my friendship with others just because she dicided not to like me anymore. She says im talking bad about her but the truth is i havent even talked to anyone she knows for months now. I'm tired of the lying and the drama. I find myself blaming others or where I live but maybe its not that at all.
For a long time I was hoping to move to run away from my problem that maybe people in other areas will be better.
I remeber first moving to this area and being made fun of because my parents didnt have as much money as the rest of the kids. I blamed it on the area but maybe its just people? Maybe its me?
I still hope to move and run away maybe start a new life.
A funny thing is that we all know I hardly went to school but after this year im starting to see what people thought of me. I thought they all hated me but I have people coming up to me telling me how cool they thought i was and how they wished they had, had the balls to come up and talk to me and ask me to hangout or people I have no idea who they are come up and know so much about me its weird. etc.
Thats life. I've made a lot of mistakes...