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H'okay. So, I'm leaving. In, like...5 days. I wasted away the summer. I suck. But, heh. yay! Back to the mixin' and minglin' that is "something new" (yes, that's said with the absurd "announcer voice"...the one that's always in your face trying to sell you some shit..yeah.) Heh. So, if I don't talk to you between now and when I leave...and sadly enough don't attempt to keep contact with you during this whole "expanding myself out of Flushing" thing...it's been fun...for whatever reason it was. I say this not because I believe college is some big thing, but because I really don't plan on coming home all that much. Even during the holidays. I'll prolly shack up in my apartment and then do Summer classes in hopes of early graduation. Woot. Getting in and out with as much stealth as someone with two left feet can muster. Which, in my case, is not much. Heh.
On one side note I'm depressed at this shit that I'm leaving behind. The loose ends I may have been to scared too repair. The shit that I've known for a good part of my life. Having everyone I know and like, at most, a twenty minute drive away. I'm going to be two hours away and not really able to get to all the comforts that actually had me ok to deal with this place.
On another side note some of that shit is also a good reason for me to leave. A fresh start. Branch out and stop being the "Queen of Darkness" or what have you. Maybe this distance and distraction will help to make the fact that certain things didn't quite go how I had wanted them to go..or naively believed that they were going to go. I'm learning. Time to take this shit on the road and inflict fear unto, hopefully, twenty people by the end of this school year.
Yeah. and if for some reason you actually read this drabble. Congrats. You're quite possibly crazier than I am. >=) I prolly still love you, as best I can, either way. Yup, that's right. For some reason I felt the need to be sentimental...or as sentimental as I can be without any emotional pain being involved. Don't ask. Just laugh and wander away.....
On one side note I'm depressed at this shit that I'm leaving behind. The loose ends I may have been to scared too repair. The shit that I've known for a good part of my life. Having everyone I know and like, at most, a twenty minute drive away. I'm going to be two hours away and not really able to get to all the comforts that actually had me ok to deal with this place.
On another side note some of that shit is also a good reason for me to leave. A fresh start. Branch out and stop being the "Queen of Darkness" or what have you. Maybe this distance and distraction will help to make the fact that certain things didn't quite go how I had wanted them to go..or naively believed that they were going to go. I'm learning. Time to take this shit on the road and inflict fear unto, hopefully, twenty people by the end of this school year.
Yeah. and if for some reason you actually read this drabble. Congrats. You're quite possibly crazier than I am. >=) I prolly still love you, as best I can, either way. Yup, that's right. For some reason I felt the need to be sentimental...or as sentimental as I can be without any emotional pain being involved. Don't ask. Just laugh and wander away.....