well, needless to say today sucked.
I'm sick as a dog right now.
i am extremely hungry, but I cant bring myself to eat.
I just can't believe it's all over.
His post was such a shot in the gut.
that was our song, I can remember writing out those lyrics on paper for him as a present.
I sat in my bed drinking a dr. pepper and eating raisinettes, while listening to it and writing the lyrics...
Like I have not posted anything that should have made him assume anything, but hje did, and he was dead wrong.
But even if I was, the post was still a smack across the face.
I cant call out from the phone in my room, its retarded, so I stayed up till 2 am to wait for him to get home. Little did I know he was going out on a date. I dont mind, I can't mind, he's not mine anymore. But he knows I read his lj, it was like he wanted me to know what he did, out of spite because he assumed something.
Against my better judgement, I called his phone, 3 times actually, but well, he hit ignore and we didnt get to talk.
I'm not apologizing for anything, i did nothing wrong.
And Steph said something to me today when i was really upset that kinda calmed me down a bit: Just because you think your meant to be, doesn;t mean your meant to be right now.
But i guess this is how he wants it. And I still just want him to be happy, despite all the bitterness thta I have right now, I want nothing better for him. I just hope she can make him happy in ways I couldnt. He deserves it.
wow, i just can't believe how much I truely care about this. I was furious this morning and all day long, but now, its hitting me, and it really feels like I'm being stabbed in the heart. I just wish I could erase everything. From the past almost year in 20 days... wow. It hurts so much to think about it.
-Melissa
wow, this sucks
i am extremely hungry, but I cant bring myself to eat.
I just can't believe it's all over.
His post was such a shot in the gut.
that was our song, I can remember writing out those lyrics on paper for him as a present.
I sat in my bed drinking a dr. pepper and eating raisinettes, while listening to it and writing the lyrics...
Like I have not posted anything that should have made him assume anything, but hje did, and he was dead wrong.
But even if I was, the post was still a smack across the face.
I cant call out from the phone in my room, its retarded, so I stayed up till 2 am to wait for him to get home. Little did I know he was going out on a date. I dont mind, I can't mind, he's not mine anymore. But he knows I read his lj, it was like he wanted me to know what he did, out of spite because he assumed something.
Against my better judgement, I called his phone, 3 times actually, but well, he hit ignore and we didnt get to talk.
I'm not apologizing for anything, i did nothing wrong.
And Steph said something to me today when i was really upset that kinda calmed me down a bit: Just because you think your meant to be, doesn;t mean your meant to be right now.
But i guess this is how he wants it. And I still just want him to be happy, despite all the bitterness thta I have right now, I want nothing better for him. I just hope she can make him happy in ways I couldnt. He deserves it.
wow, i just can't believe how much I truely care about this. I was furious this morning and all day long, but now, its hitting me, and it really feels like I'm being stabbed in the heart. I just wish I could erase everything. From the past almost year in 20 days... wow. It hurts so much to think about it.
-Melissa
wow, this sucks