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* So it is now 2005. Thank God. 2004 has been a fucking hard year. Worst year I can remember. So to ring in the new year how did I do it. Oh yeah in style. Crying. The best thing I'm good at. Well ok let me rewind and start the night over..
- Claire dumped Greg the night before. So Greg proceeds to have everyone else at his house. And then me Carly and Claire got fucked over. So Zak invited us over. I said it was cool if we went cuz I thought it would be fun. And it was at first. But then I started getting super sad. And I didn't really feel right there anyways. I wanted to go home so bad. Then the ball dropped and I just wanted to die. I almost started balling. I think I'm just scared to see what this year will bring. I don't have the best feeling about it. But well I'll just have to see. Then we went back to Claire's. In the car I LOST it. I was balling. I couldn't really tell you why I was. There were only a few reasons why I was crying. Got to Claire's and tried hiding myself from her parents. I think they thought I was fucked up. So we went to her room and I just cried and cried. I felt so bad cuz they had to cry on New Year's and they weren't having fun cuz of me. One thing that was really bothering me was Aaron. I couldn't get him outta my head. *Sigh* I really think I need to get over him. He's got Brandy and is in love with her. But it's so hard to forget about the only guy that I have ever had such a connection too. :/ Well I hope Brandy makes him happy. Cuz if she doesn't I will chop off her head. He deserves happiness. Even if it isn't with me.
* Start of another year..please be better then past year has been..