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* So after tonight, I just have soOoOoOo much running though my mind.
- I'm gonna start with the one I'm sure everyone knows by now. I'm simply in love with Aaron. No matter how far away he is. No matter if he has a girlfriend, which I should add he is in love with. Even if we barely talk anymore. I think about him everyday single day. There isn't a day that goes by that I haven't thought about how much I miss him and hope he's ok. Ever since he got this girl, we don't talk like we used to. Not at all. That kid could read me like a book. And I only met him 2 summers ago. Gosh, best summer of my life. We were inseperable. :/ But those things happen. I'll just have to keep on going. And I love him so much. Nothing will ever change that.
- Second theres also another person that I can't stop thinking about lately. We talked like we knew each other forever too. Inseperable for like a month. If we weren't together, we were deffinantly on the phone. I liked it. I liked it a lot. He showed so much, careness. Which if you know him, he doesn't care too much about feelings. Example, we were drunk together and well you know me. But instead of taking advantage of me he said, this isn't right. I don't want you to regret anything. That meant soooo much. It made me want him more. Everything was amazing. I was so happy. And then one day, bam. He said he liked me, but only as a friend because of the way I act around some friends. Then after about a few months of not talking he told me he regrets doing that. And I ask why he did it then and he said he was scared. Gosh. But I could see why. A major player meets a girl. Thinking easy ass, but after talking to her and being with her a lot, finds out he has feelings. Real strong feelings. Not sexual ones, but REAL ones. And got scared and wasn't ready for it. Just wish he wasn't so damn scared. :/
-Last, is the guy I'm talking to right now. He's actually every smart. But yet not. He is sweet. But yet not. He everything I could want. But yet not. He's so damn hard to read. Sometimes I'm sure he likes me. But yet there's other times I'm not so sure. And then he told me he didn't want a realtionship. And then 2 days later, he was thinking about it. Cuz he wants one, but then again not. Blah blah blah. And then today he told me basicly he could have a realationship with me, but doesn't know if he wants one. * Sigh* Again, he's scared. Why do guys get so scared? I don't get it. I also just fall for the player/assholes too. :/ That's always a problem with me. So yeah..I just don't know what to do...
- I'm gonna start with the one I'm sure everyone knows by now. I'm simply in love with Aaron. No matter how far away he is. No matter if he has a girlfriend, which I should add he is in love with. Even if we barely talk anymore. I think about him everyday single day. There isn't a day that goes by that I haven't thought about how much I miss him and hope he's ok. Ever since he got this girl, we don't talk like we used to. Not at all. That kid could read me like a book. And I only met him 2 summers ago. Gosh, best summer of my life. We were inseperable. :/ But those things happen. I'll just have to keep on going. And I love him so much. Nothing will ever change that.
- Second theres also another person that I can't stop thinking about lately. We talked like we knew each other forever too. Inseperable for like a month. If we weren't together, we were deffinantly on the phone. I liked it. I liked it a lot. He showed so much, careness. Which if you know him, he doesn't care too much about feelings. Example, we were drunk together and well you know me. But instead of taking advantage of me he said, this isn't right. I don't want you to regret anything. That meant soooo much. It made me want him more. Everything was amazing. I was so happy. And then one day, bam. He said he liked me, but only as a friend because of the way I act around some friends. Then after about a few months of not talking he told me he regrets doing that. And I ask why he did it then and he said he was scared. Gosh. But I could see why. A major player meets a girl. Thinking easy ass, but after talking to her and being with her a lot, finds out he has feelings. Real strong feelings. Not sexual ones, but REAL ones. And got scared and wasn't ready for it. Just wish he wasn't so damn scared. :/
-Last, is the guy I'm talking to right now. He's actually every smart. But yet not. He is sweet. But yet not. He everything I could want. But yet not. He's so damn hard to read. Sometimes I'm sure he likes me. But yet there's other times I'm not so sure. And then he told me he didn't want a realtionship. And then 2 days later, he was thinking about it. Cuz he wants one, but then again not. Blah blah blah. And then today he told me basicly he could have a realationship with me, but doesn't know if he wants one. * Sigh* Again, he's scared. Why do guys get so scared? I don't get it. I also just fall for the player/assholes too. :/ That's always a problem with me. So yeah..I just don't know what to do...