Interesting...
With the advent of Facebook, I find myself easily adapting to the short, "meaningful" updates or 3 sentences or less. Which would be fine for LJ if I thought a few sentences would really be satisfying (which it's not).
Speaking of satisfying...have you ever felt just completely dissatisfied with yourself? Maybe not yourself completely, but a combination of things about yourself you keep meaning to change and never do, coupled with things outside your control that affect you that make you feel even more crappy about not changing the things you DO have control over?
That's kinda how I feel right now. And to top it off, when I decided this topic was worthy of an LJ post because it would take more than 3 sentences to expound, I find myself reminded that I'm completely dissatisfied with the fact that I post so rarely, and with absolutely nothing interesting to say these last few years. Not that the drivel I posted when I first came to LJ Land was terribly interesting--but at least it was heartfelt and honest and what was in my brain.
Nowadays it seems Iike I don't engage my brain to write at all. Not for Facebook, not posting comments or comics or anything, really. Maybe that's why school so enthralls me, even when I hate it. I force myself to exceed my expectations and work harder than I want to. So I have something to feel proud of. To take my mind off the things about myself that are so disatisfying.
It's the constant "when happens, I will be happy" thought. When I graduate, when I'm thin, when I'm making money. When I get to stop worrying about every little thing going wrong and ruining my happiness...I will be happy. And my personal favorite--that there's just not enough time in the day to be be happy AND get everything you need to done.
It's an interesting phenomenon in my brain.
Speaking of satisfying...have you ever felt just completely dissatisfied with yourself? Maybe not yourself completely, but a combination of things about yourself you keep meaning to change and never do, coupled with things outside your control that affect you that make you feel even more crappy about not changing the things you DO have control over?
That's kinda how I feel right now. And to top it off, when I decided this topic was worthy of an LJ post because it would take more than 3 sentences to expound, I find myself reminded that I'm completely dissatisfied with the fact that I post so rarely, and with absolutely nothing interesting to say these last few years. Not that the drivel I posted when I first came to LJ Land was terribly interesting--but at least it was heartfelt and honest and what was in my brain.
Nowadays it seems Iike I don't engage my brain to write at all. Not for Facebook, not posting comments or comics or anything, really. Maybe that's why school so enthralls me, even when I hate it. I force myself to exceed my expectations and work harder than I want to. So I have something to feel proud of. To take my mind off the things about myself that are so disatisfying.
It's the constant "when happens, I will be happy" thought. When I graduate, when I'm thin, when I'm making money. When I get to stop worrying about every little thing going wrong and ruining my happiness...I will be happy. And my personal favorite--that there's just not enough time in the day to be be happy AND get everything you need to done.
It's an interesting phenomenon in my brain.