grey zone {Kai/Luhan} [1/7]
kai/luhan; angst, infidelity!AU; ~49k; NC-17
warnings:[click to see]early call for kneelex preparation; infidelity; luhan having ambiguous sexual orientation; implied!het!sex; toddlers; luhan with a toddler; wu yifan being a not-so-eloquent-but-kind-of-helpful bff/cousin; jongin being a sexy fucker
a/n: infinite gratitude to L for beta'ing despite the emotional distress i might have subjected her; P (and also L and N to some extent) for early brain-storming, virtual hand-holding and putting up with my nonsensical rants; tlist for providing kailu-based motivation.
>>title and one of jongin's lines taken from Grey Zone by Nell
>>inspired by the Taiwanese film GF*BF (女朋友。男朋友)
>>also kudos to Nell for producing the absolutely phenomenal album that is Newton's Apple to which i listened and looped while writing.
>>cross-posted at ao3 here
p r o l o g u e
“What are we?” Jongin asked out of nowhere. Luhan whipped his head around and shot him a surprised look. “I just… I don’t know. Just wondering. It’s not a big deal, really…” Jongin trailed off, eyes dropping to Luhan’s arm that was circled around his waist. He took Luhan’s hand and began to trace the protruding veins on the back, like mapping a web of intersecting roads that might take him to Luhan’s heart.
Luhan thought about this. What were they? They were friends that surpassed the hyung-dongsaeng honorifics, but they were not just friends. Were they lovers? Fuck buddies with an emotional connection? Companions extended from a platonic relationship? What were they, really?
“We are two people who love each other,” Luhan said finally as he drew his hand from Jongin’s. Luhan put his palms on either side of Jongin’s face and looked into the twinkles of familiar stars. “Is that good enough?” Luhan said half-jokingly, a smirk playing at his lips.
“It’s more than enough,” Jongin whispered as he leaned in, smiling against Luhan’s mouth. That was the sweetest Luhan had ever tasted of Jongin.
The sweetest.
two
warnings:[click to see]early call for kneelex preparation; infidelity; luhan having ambiguous sexual orientation; implied!het!sex; toddlers; luhan with a toddler; wu yifan being a not-so-eloquent-but-kind-of-helpful bff/cousin; jongin being a sexy fucker
a/n: infinite gratitude to L for beta'ing despite the emotional distress i might have subjected her; P (and also L and N to some extent) for early brain-storming, virtual hand-holding and putting up with my nonsensical rants; tlist for providing kailu-based motivation.
>>title and one of jongin's lines taken from Grey Zone by Nell
>>inspired by the Taiwanese film GF*BF (女朋友。男朋友)
>>also kudos to Nell for producing the absolutely phenomenal album that is Newton's Apple to which i listened and looped while writing.
>>cross-posted at ao3 here
p r o l o g u e
“What are we?” Jongin asked out of nowhere. Luhan whipped his head around and shot him a surprised look. “I just… I don’t know. Just wondering. It’s not a big deal, really…” Jongin trailed off, eyes dropping to Luhan’s arm that was circled around his waist. He took Luhan’s hand and began to trace the protruding veins on the back, like mapping a web of intersecting roads that might take him to Luhan’s heart.
Luhan thought about this. What were they? They were friends that surpassed the hyung-dongsaeng honorifics, but they were not just friends. Were they lovers? Fuck buddies with an emotional connection? Companions extended from a platonic relationship? What were they, really?
“We are two people who love each other,” Luhan said finally as he drew his hand from Jongin’s. Luhan put his palms on either side of Jongin’s face and looked into the twinkles of familiar stars. “Is that good enough?” Luhan said half-jokingly, a smirk playing at his lips.
“It’s more than enough,” Jongin whispered as he leaned in, smiling against Luhan’s mouth. That was the sweetest Luhan had ever tasted of Jongin.
The sweetest.
two