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well im sittin here completly bored..so i thought id write in here about...just whatever comes to my mind.
i just got done watching blue collered comedy tour, Ron "Tatersalad" White is soooo funny, if you havent seen it you should.
for some reason, i always feel like...im old? like ive already lived my life, and im just going to die or something. its weird, i cant really explain it. like before summer, i had this feeling that i just wasnt going to make it threw summer, i was just going to die somehow. that was also when my anxiety started to come back really bad, like it was bad in the begining of the year..and it went away, then came back. i havent had one in a while, but when i do i just flip out. i dno it sucks.
i really want to get a job, and get my own place, but my own things...i hate people helping me out all the time, cause everytime they do help me i feel like i owe them something. and its usually money, but when i dont have to pay them back, i stil feel like i owe them something.
i duno, maybe one day ill figure out my life...figure out what im going to do, or maybe i wont.
well shit im done writing in here, i cant think of anything else to write about...later.
oh yeah! i saw a meteor thing, cause there is a meteor shower, and i was walking into ricks apt. and i was looking up and this HUGE light flew threw the sky, and first thing that came to mine was "UFO?" and rick said nah it was a meteor, i was just like oh...cool.
i just got done watching blue collered comedy tour, Ron "Tatersalad" White is soooo funny, if you havent seen it you should.
for some reason, i always feel like...im old? like ive already lived my life, and im just going to die or something. its weird, i cant really explain it. like before summer, i had this feeling that i just wasnt going to make it threw summer, i was just going to die somehow. that was also when my anxiety started to come back really bad, like it was bad in the begining of the year..and it went away, then came back. i havent had one in a while, but when i do i just flip out. i dno it sucks.
i really want to get a job, and get my own place, but my own things...i hate people helping me out all the time, cause everytime they do help me i feel like i owe them something. and its usually money, but when i dont have to pay them back, i stil feel like i owe them something.
i duno, maybe one day ill figure out my life...figure out what im going to do, or maybe i wont.
well shit im done writing in here, i cant think of anything else to write about...later.
oh yeah! i saw a meteor thing, cause there is a meteor shower, and i was walking into ricks apt. and i was looking up and this HUGE light flew threw the sky, and first thing that came to mine was "UFO?" and rick said nah it was a meteor, i was just like oh...cool.