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I'm getting slightly worried at the change in my behaviour patterns. I've developed obsessive-ness, get far to interested in things for my own and it's own good, and as Valentines day approaches, getting more and more neurotic. I mean, Jon for example. I've been interested in him for a while, and after college I almost pounced on him and demanded a long "heart to heart" outside the college gates. Maybe luckily, he is bisexual, but unluckily for me, is seeing somebody. Then I, who is always usually against sabotage of anykind, start trying to pursuade him to dump her. Then when that failed, I changed stratergies to spoiling whatever they had.
Then of course there's Luke. And this is worring in itself as Luke is one of the people I've got closest to, and I think his girlfriend Faith is wonderful. I'm refering to me flirting very obviously with him in front of Faith. And I already know he is straight.
The obsessive-ness. I'm always saying that college is the only think that's stopping me from killing myself, and yet I get so absorbed into my computer that I just abandon everything related to college, and to everything else for that matter.
I need to sort my head out and re-assess things, and work out how and what things need changing. Because they do. And soon.