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I know, its been awhile, and I'm sorry for that.
Well I did it, I'm the new assistant manager for 3rd shift. And to my surprise so is Alex.
I'm saving money for school, which basicly means I can't spend any money, it also means I'm gonna have to go and find a part time job.
And I can't say this enough, damn this is a great year.
Well after 4 years of no sign of Liz, she just showed up. She came and saw me at work, and for the 30 mins. she was there it was like nothing ever changed, we fell right back into the same habits we used to have. But after almost a week, I've come to my senses. She's still az confused az always, still drinks like a fish, has 2 kids and I'm making life altering plans, plans that have no room for her. It hurt to come to this conclusion, but when I stopped to look at the big picture, there's just no way I can do what I need to do and build a future with her. And az happy az I'd be with her, I'd never forgive my self for giving up school for some girl from my past.
Any of you ever had a lover you never make physical contact with(beyond simple touches like hugs, or hand shakes). I do. And I love them with all my heart, and I would be crushed if they weren't in my life. I've just come to believe sex fucks up all relationships, but I have a strong need for the support, and careing of another. And life has givin me just that, a friend that will never cross that physical line, but that I have complete trust in, some one I feel I can give my heart to and not have it broken, some one that gets to know all my little secrets and hasn't thought any less of me. I find myself in a strange relationship that has some funny postibilities. We dance around the wording, az if you haven't noticed, I've done in this paragraph. And I think we need to have another talk, I think it shouldn't be just a running joke between us.
I hope you all are az blessed az I feel, and I hope you all have a great day.
Well I did it, I'm the new assistant manager for 3rd shift. And to my surprise so is Alex.
I'm saving money for school, which basicly means I can't spend any money, it also means I'm gonna have to go and find a part time job.
And I can't say this enough, damn this is a great year.
Well after 4 years of no sign of Liz, she just showed up. She came and saw me at work, and for the 30 mins. she was there it was like nothing ever changed, we fell right back into the same habits we used to have. But after almost a week, I've come to my senses. She's still az confused az always, still drinks like a fish, has 2 kids and I'm making life altering plans, plans that have no room for her. It hurt to come to this conclusion, but when I stopped to look at the big picture, there's just no way I can do what I need to do and build a future with her. And az happy az I'd be with her, I'd never forgive my self for giving up school for some girl from my past.
Any of you ever had a lover you never make physical contact with(beyond simple touches like hugs, or hand shakes). I do. And I love them with all my heart, and I would be crushed if they weren't in my life. I've just come to believe sex fucks up all relationships, but I have a strong need for the support, and careing of another. And life has givin me just that, a friend that will never cross that physical line, but that I have complete trust in, some one I feel I can give my heart to and not have it broken, some one that gets to know all my little secrets and hasn't thought any less of me. I find myself in a strange relationship that has some funny postibilities. We dance around the wording, az if you haven't noticed, I've done in this paragraph. And I think we need to have another talk, I think it shouldn't be just a running joke between us.
I hope you all are az blessed az I feel, and I hope you all have a great day.