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Az i sit here and think about all thats gone wrong in my life, and look at were I am in life, I also have to stop and look at what good has come from my life az well. Who I am, is not definded by any one thing, weather its good or bad, all that experiance az a whole is what defines me.
I'm a survivor. I've survived heartache, loss of friends, loss of love, and loss of the most important thing to me, my son. And even after all that I still get up and move forward.
I'm a lover. I've learned to love every one, weather they've done right by me or not, I hate to say it but I've even found it in my heart to forgive Tiffany for all the wrong she's done me, and the picture of her and I holding Kain has found its way back on to my night stand.
I'm a teacher. I find my self trying to pass on what I've learned in my life, and helping others to not make the same mistakes that I did, and I'm also learning that I can give all the advice in the world, but its up to them to take it.
I'm a human. I still make stupid mistakes, and fall pray to my own wants. But I also am to trusting, and compationate, but this can be seen az a good thing and a bad thing. And I may have a better hold on my temper, but it still has a habit of taking control of me and making me make hash desistions, that my pride wont let me renig on.
And I've just started to scratch the tip of the ice burg, I would say that I am a good person, full of pride in all that I do, loyal to those that are loyal to me, overly generous often giving without hesatation, and blessed with the love of all those that truely get to know me.
Regrets..........Well I truely have none, I've lived my life fuller than most people twice my age, and I have no intention of stopping. In fact I fully plan on doing every thing I've always wanted to do.
I do however feel that something is missing, or should I say someone. I want very badly to fall in love again, but I don't want to fall for the sake of falling. I've come to terms with the fact that maybe I'm ment to spend my life alone, but I have the funny feeling that I just haven't found misses right yet. And all the companinship from all my female friends makes it easier to continue on az a single male, I mean all I truely want is a female best friend, so they do the job for now. Thanx girls, all of you.
And for those that care how my B-day was, it was great. I spent it with my little brother ,Sophie, and my mother watching movies. And let me tell you Sophie made my whole day, with out her I'd felt really depressed. She makes me feel so alive its scary. She might not know that I like her, or the fact that she's got me twisted, but she does know that I will be her friend. And to find out that her and I have so much in common, it was kinda kewl. Her and I are going out again on Monday, to just kick it. I think I'm gonna get her a rose to say thanx, I am a firm believer in women should be given flowers with out warning or request.
Note to self: Feb. 14 make plans to take her out and if I still feel the same way tell her.
Well its getting early, or late depending on how you look at it, so I'm gonna say night Yall!!!!!
This is shaping up to be the start of a fantastic year, and I really am looking forward to it.
May all ur dreams come true, and wishes be answered, for its great to be alive and know that someone some where loves you.
Sophie, you may not think anyone will wait for you, but if this continues to go az it did today, if you'll have me I'll wait. Sweet dreams for a sweet soul.
Night Yall, see when I see you.
I'm a survivor. I've survived heartache, loss of friends, loss of love, and loss of the most important thing to me, my son. And even after all that I still get up and move forward.
I'm a lover. I've learned to love every one, weather they've done right by me or not, I hate to say it but I've even found it in my heart to forgive Tiffany for all the wrong she's done me, and the picture of her and I holding Kain has found its way back on to my night stand.
I'm a teacher. I find my self trying to pass on what I've learned in my life, and helping others to not make the same mistakes that I did, and I'm also learning that I can give all the advice in the world, but its up to them to take it.
I'm a human. I still make stupid mistakes, and fall pray to my own wants. But I also am to trusting, and compationate, but this can be seen az a good thing and a bad thing. And I may have a better hold on my temper, but it still has a habit of taking control of me and making me make hash desistions, that my pride wont let me renig on.
And I've just started to scratch the tip of the ice burg, I would say that I am a good person, full of pride in all that I do, loyal to those that are loyal to me, overly generous often giving without hesatation, and blessed with the love of all those that truely get to know me.
Regrets..........Well I truely have none, I've lived my life fuller than most people twice my age, and I have no intention of stopping. In fact I fully plan on doing every thing I've always wanted to do.
I do however feel that something is missing, or should I say someone. I want very badly to fall in love again, but I don't want to fall for the sake of falling. I've come to terms with the fact that maybe I'm ment to spend my life alone, but I have the funny feeling that I just haven't found misses right yet. And all the companinship from all my female friends makes it easier to continue on az a single male, I mean all I truely want is a female best friend, so they do the job for now. Thanx girls, all of you.
And for those that care how my B-day was, it was great. I spent it with my little brother ,Sophie, and my mother watching movies. And let me tell you Sophie made my whole day, with out her I'd felt really depressed. She makes me feel so alive its scary. She might not know that I like her, or the fact that she's got me twisted, but she does know that I will be her friend. And to find out that her and I have so much in common, it was kinda kewl. Her and I are going out again on Monday, to just kick it. I think I'm gonna get her a rose to say thanx, I am a firm believer in women should be given flowers with out warning or request.
Note to self: Feb. 14 make plans to take her out and if I still feel the same way tell her.
Well its getting early, or late depending on how you look at it, so I'm gonna say night Yall!!!!!
This is shaping up to be the start of a fantastic year, and I really am looking forward to it.
May all ur dreams come true, and wishes be answered, for its great to be alive and know that someone some where loves you.
Sophie, you may not think anyone will wait for you, but if this continues to go az it did today, if you'll have me I'll wait. Sweet dreams for a sweet soul.
Night Yall, see when I see you.