homesickness
So i'm way sick of having to leave home every weekend to come back to a place that i despise with people i don't really like (except my two roomies) to work my ass off and miss home so much that i want to cry. i miss my mom, and my boyfriend, my brother, dad, sister (sometimes) my bed, my job, my town, my family, my friends, everything that's familiar, I even miss wal-mart. I'm not joking when i say that sometimes i close my eyes and take a hypothetical trip through the wal-mart at home because that is a place that i am familiar and comfortable with, a place i recognize and is filled with people that i know. i call my voicemail over and over just to hear my mom or jon's voice. I watch tv shows that i don't like just because i know that my family is watching the same thing at the same time. I hate being here, i want to be home. I cry when i have to leave there and am UBER excited when i get to go back. my time spent in saginaw drags by and is seen as just something to get trhough until i can get home again. i rarely eat, i have trouble sleeping, but try to do it often because it makes the time go faster. i'm counting down the days until christmas break when i dont have to see this place for a whole month. when i can relax and enjoy the time spent with those that i love. i hope it comes soon.