Hmmm....
I feel so sad for my friends...I mean, one person in particular, is going through some very bad things that I can't really do anything about...of course, I know I can't "fix" everything, but I wish I could...anyways, oh well, i'm sure everything will turn out fine...THINK POSITIVE! *wink*
You know, in a way, what y'all have been saying is true...i think that when people first get into college right out of high school, they get into that stage where they're not really sure who they are or anything...i dunno...maybe that's like me...of course i know my life has meaning...what is that meaning?...to help other people...not to fall in love or to make people happy or to be on stage or anything like that...but to help other people...i mean, that makes sense, don't it?
In reality, i can't really make people happy cuz i'm not entirely positive enough to do so...and in all honesty, i mean come on guys, my meaning can't be to be onstage cuz honestly, i'm just NOT talented enough, and i'm totally okay with that...yeah at times it hurts cuz i figured that was the only thing i had going for me...but not no more...i get to help people and isn't that a great thing?...well, i KNOW that it's not to love, or be loved...because it's never happened to me and i don't think it can, i don't think it can because there's just no way...hehe...anyways, no biggy, i'll get over it...
But when i help people, it makes me feel better to know that their life will get just a little bit better because i was able to talk to them and make them feel better or give them something that made them happy...i guess that's probably why i wanna be a teacher...cuz i wanna help people and who better to do that than a teacher...i'll grow to be an old spinster teacher in my two bedroom condo with eleven cats...hehe...what a picture that'll be...
Do I want the love thing? OF COURSE I DO...everybody does...it sux being lonely...but to be gratified with the feeling of helping others is good too, right?...maybe i'm just totally screwy or something...all's i know is what is gonna become of me...i probably will never fall in love or anything...i probably won't ever end up onstage but instead watch my lil sis onstage and envy her to the max...i'll probably never have children but end up babysitting my neices and nephews...i'll probably not keep in touch with the people that i know now...and i'll probably never become beautiful...but in the end, i'll die happy cuz other people are happy...
WHAT A LOAD OF CRAP...
~Cherisey~
You know, in a way, what y'all have been saying is true...i think that when people first get into college right out of high school, they get into that stage where they're not really sure who they are or anything...i dunno...maybe that's like me...of course i know my life has meaning...what is that meaning?...to help other people...not to fall in love or to make people happy or to be on stage or anything like that...but to help other people...i mean, that makes sense, don't it?
In reality, i can't really make people happy cuz i'm not entirely positive enough to do so...and in all honesty, i mean come on guys, my meaning can't be to be onstage cuz honestly, i'm just NOT talented enough, and i'm totally okay with that...yeah at times it hurts cuz i figured that was the only thing i had going for me...but not no more...i get to help people and isn't that a great thing?...well, i KNOW that it's not to love, or be loved...because it's never happened to me and i don't think it can, i don't think it can because there's just no way...hehe...anyways, no biggy, i'll get over it...
But when i help people, it makes me feel better to know that their life will get just a little bit better because i was able to talk to them and make them feel better or give them something that made them happy...i guess that's probably why i wanna be a teacher...cuz i wanna help people and who better to do that than a teacher...i'll grow to be an old spinster teacher in my two bedroom condo with eleven cats...hehe...what a picture that'll be...
Do I want the love thing? OF COURSE I DO...everybody does...it sux being lonely...but to be gratified with the feeling of helping others is good too, right?...maybe i'm just totally screwy or something...all's i know is what is gonna become of me...i probably will never fall in love or anything...i probably won't ever end up onstage but instead watch my lil sis onstage and envy her to the max...i'll probably never have children but end up babysitting my neices and nephews...i'll probably not keep in touch with the people that i know now...and i'll probably never become beautiful...but in the end, i'll die happy cuz other people are happy...
WHAT A LOAD OF CRAP...
~Cherisey~