REGULAR APPLICATION: STAMP ME PLEASE! [FIRST TIMER]

Nov 19, 2011 21:43

Application
BASICS 
Name: Bea
Age: 20
General Location: Home is in Manila, Philippines, but I go to university at Vassar College in Poughkeepsie, NY
Describe your personality: The most obvious things about me are that I am independent, passionate, opinionated, head-strong, and idealistic. I know what my opinions and values are and will not hesitate to voice them when I see fit. Even in my family, the beliefs I have are not the norm so people sometimes me as argumentative and stubborn and I am often the "unusual", "weird", or "quirky" one. Unfortunately, because of this, I can be quite socially anxious and self-doubting. I don't change myself or my beliefs, but I do get self-conscious and I may withdraw if I feel I am being judged.
I value fairness, compassion, equality, and understanding and will defend these beliefs no matter what. I am not exactly a fighter, but I can be pretty verbally combative. I can also be pretty sarcastic and sometimes cynical. My mother really hates that.
That being said, I am relatively non-confrontational for the most part. I may be opinionated, but I back down when things get too heated. However, if that is the case, I will not just role over and submit. I don't like being controlled or told what to do. So instead of fighting and yelling and raising my voice, I quietly resist by either being sneaky or by being passive aggressive.
In terms of romance, I am a romantic at heart, but because I am afraid of people judging me, I often use cynicism and sarcasm to attempt not to appear vulnerable. When I am asked about crushes or boyfriends, I tend to scoff and say they are more trouble than they are worth (and although this is partially true, another part of me really relishes the idea of a romantic relationship). Unfortunately, this technique is not particularly conducive to romance. It should be noted though, that I use sarcasm and cynicism to protect against all kinds of vulnerability, not just the romantic kind. I don't like to appear weak or like I can't handle myself. This also means I try to do things on my own and don't often ask for help even when I need it.
Although I am fairly accommodating and understanding when it comes to other people, I can be quite a perfectionist about myself and my work. I have very high standards for myself and it really bothers me when I don't meet those standards. I suppose this is another reason I can be self-doubting.
I am a pretty nervous person. I can be a little paranoid and often mentally prepare for worst case scenarios. However, this doesn't mean I am always freaking out. On the contrary, troubleshooting gives me a sense of control and that is how I appear on the surface. That being said, I do tend to be irritable when under a lot of stress. My kind of nervousness is NOT whipping myself up into a tizzy and clucking about like a headless chicken.
I am introverted and tend to keep to myself quite a bit. I really abhor parties and socialising in massive groups. I prefer intimate setting and dealing with small groups of friends. I also really enjoy my own company. Some people may consider me anti-social or aloof because of this, but I feel much more relaxed and at home when I am on my own. I usually take this time for introspection and trying to understand myself. I consider myself a case study that I am constantly examining and learning about. It is one of my favourite things to do.I can also be very thoughtful/imaginative/fanciful. I spend a lot of time in my head daydreaming when I am alone.
I consider myself to be quite creative and resourceful, not only artistically, but in day to day life as well. I am often very good at troubleshooting and coming up with many solutions to a problem.
I am pretty lacking in the self-control department and can be quite impulsive. However, I do have some sense of responsibility and I can be counted on when something is important.
I can be very playful and child-like. I don't like being serious all the time and I despise drama. I enjoy having a good laugh, being silly, and not taking things so seriously all the time.
I am fairly spiritual. It is a big part of my life. I don't subscribe to a particular religion because I believe that all religions are based on the same fundamental principles and are just shrouded in doctrine. I concern myself with the underlying principles only.
I am a proud feminist!
Positive and negative traits you would have as a hero: independent, passionate (wears heart on sleeve), opinionated, head-strong, idealistic, fair, unpretentious, self-doubting, impulsive, quirky, resourceful, imaginative, nervous/anxious, introverted, introspective
What do you consider to be some of your worst fears? 
 - Having no friends/loosing all the people I care about (I am quite introverted so it is difficult for me to make friends. The few I have are very precious to me and I always fear loosing them and being alone.)
 - Pain (I'm afrain of pain, not death.)
 - Rejection (This is a big one, and I use sarcasm and introversion as a way to defend against it.)
 - Failure (Disappointing my family especially.)
 - And then the typical stuff: heights and the dark
What would be your weapons of choice? In a fight, I prefer to be able to have a macro view of the fighting and be able to strategize, so I suppose I prefer long range, projectile weapons.
Your outfit (it's design and colors): If we are talking about character outfits, then a sleek, feminine medieval gown with those awesome long sleeve. Jewellery is very delicate. Probably just a little pendant.
Oh, and by sleek, I don't mean formfitting. More like loosely hugging the body. Not a big fan of poofy skirts either.
Favourites (colour, food, music, etc.):
Colour: purple and orange (rich shades)
Food: I really don't know. I suppose I tend to like pastries and chocolates. But honestly like a LOT of things.
Music: Upbeat music I can dance to and movie soundtrack and scores
Books: philosophy, psychology, self-help
Hobbies: painting, sketching, dancing, reading

THIS OR THAT 
Love or Hate (which do you find you do more of): Love!
Determined or Accepting: It really depends. Usually accepting, but if it is something I care about, I can be very determined.
Making your own Destiny or Accepting Fate: There is a certain element of fate in life (what I like to call Divine Purpose), but our we definitely have a hand in creating our own destiny. Short answer: a bit of both.
Brave or Safe: Usually safe, though definitely have brave moments
Pacifist or Temperamental: I suppose I am pretty temperamental (but pretty quietly)
Quiet or outspoken: Depends on the crowd: outspoken with friends and people I know well, quiet around strangers 
Forgiving or vengeful: In the middle: not exactly forgiving, but I am not vengeful at all. I usually tend to cut the person out of my life in situations like that
Leader or follower: I will follow until the leader proved himself/herself to be incompetent or started making decisions that contradicted my values, at which point I would rebel, leave, or seek to replace him/her as the leader.

FINAL QUESTIONS
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be? From experience, I know that for me, it is not where you are, it is who you are with. I could probably learn to live anywhere as long as the people I love are with me.
How would you defeat the villain? I consider myself pretty resourceful, so I figure that would be what helps me defeat the villain. I would probably come up with some creative, though admittedly unusual way of kicking his/her ass.
Damsel in distress, loner, anti-hero--which type describes you best? I would probably be a loner. I spend an inordinate amount of time in my own company so it is really the most likely scenario.
Anything else you'd like to add?
I voted on these three applications before making this so please don't not vote.
http://disney-heroes.livejournal.com/400491.html?view=3096171#t3096171
http://disney-heroes.livejournal.com/400864.html?view=3096032#t3096032
http://disney-heroes.livejournal.com/401378.html?view=3095778#t3095778

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