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ok i know that no one reads this but i just have to vent quickly and it's easier to type than to hand write when you're venting.
I was have a normal good day, andi was in a perfectly happy mood, until 7th period! Then i ended the day in tears. WHY is miss wiebener so mean? I DREAD going to my lessons every tuesday, and then i finally just got up the guts to go... but i shouldn't have. All she did the entire time was seriously scream and tell me how horrible i was doing. And how i should be so much better. She couldn't have been any more rude. I seriously left crying and i couldn't even make it through the rest of chorus becuase i was so upset!! She is SO discouraging! isn't that the opposite of what teachers are supposed to be? I NEVER cry, like ever! But she was making me feel like absolutely nothing!! Not that i have any confidence in my violin playing to begin with, but she took what LITTLE i would ever have, and threw it down and stomped on it. It makes me so angry because anytime i did something wrong she would just yell and say "you ALLLWAYS do that" or "you NEVVVER do this!!" And THEN she always throws in these little comments about how singers can read music, and basically if you're a singer you're the dirt of the earth. She's like
" oh you didn't read that interval because you're a SINGER. and singers aaaalways just sing by ear and you don't learn notes that way!" bull crap miss wiebener. You don't know the first thing about singing, or how i sing, or how i read music. She should KNOW that singing is my life, and i play violin 1/2 way because i enjoy it ( EXCEPT when i'm with her) and 1/2 way so i can get into Azusa with more scholarships. But NO percent of why i am playing is so i can be first chair, or in the top of my class! I am not like Camille and William! I don't go to Pruecil or take from some professional teacher and looooove playing the violin and practice for hours upon hours and devote my entire life to being the best player i can be. I have chosen to give my time and energy to OTHER things, so just because i'm not the model violin player that she would like, doesnt' mean that she has a right to do that to me. She thinks that she is queen of the music department and queen of the world, and meanwhile her students that she's supposed to be encouraging, leave in TEARS. And i am even a really tough one to get to cry, because i'm just not made like that, but i just can't tell you how horrible she made me feel!! I'm so tired of being so afraid of her, and always fearing my next lesson. I'm tired of trying to measure up to what she wants me to be, and competeting with certain people in my grade. I'm just not a competitive person about something like this. I don't care where i sit in orchestra! I don't care that i don't try out for all state. I don't care, yet somehow she expects me to, so much! What is wrong with that lady? Anyone know??
Anyway, i need to go eat and then leave. But i just had to get that out, for my own sake. Hopefull on to a better night...
I was have a normal good day, andi was in a perfectly happy mood, until 7th period! Then i ended the day in tears. WHY is miss wiebener so mean? I DREAD going to my lessons every tuesday, and then i finally just got up the guts to go... but i shouldn't have. All she did the entire time was seriously scream and tell me how horrible i was doing. And how i should be so much better. She couldn't have been any more rude. I seriously left crying and i couldn't even make it through the rest of chorus becuase i was so upset!! She is SO discouraging! isn't that the opposite of what teachers are supposed to be? I NEVER cry, like ever! But she was making me feel like absolutely nothing!! Not that i have any confidence in my violin playing to begin with, but she took what LITTLE i would ever have, and threw it down and stomped on it. It makes me so angry because anytime i did something wrong she would just yell and say "you ALLLWAYS do that" or "you NEVVVER do this!!" And THEN she always throws in these little comments about how singers can read music, and basically if you're a singer you're the dirt of the earth. She's like
" oh you didn't read that interval because you're a SINGER. and singers aaaalways just sing by ear and you don't learn notes that way!" bull crap miss wiebener. You don't know the first thing about singing, or how i sing, or how i read music. She should KNOW that singing is my life, and i play violin 1/2 way because i enjoy it ( EXCEPT when i'm with her) and 1/2 way so i can get into Azusa with more scholarships. But NO percent of why i am playing is so i can be first chair, or in the top of my class! I am not like Camille and William! I don't go to Pruecil or take from some professional teacher and looooove playing the violin and practice for hours upon hours and devote my entire life to being the best player i can be. I have chosen to give my time and energy to OTHER things, so just because i'm not the model violin player that she would like, doesnt' mean that she has a right to do that to me. She thinks that she is queen of the music department and queen of the world, and meanwhile her students that she's supposed to be encouraging, leave in TEARS. And i am even a really tough one to get to cry, because i'm just not made like that, but i just can't tell you how horrible she made me feel!! I'm so tired of being so afraid of her, and always fearing my next lesson. I'm tired of trying to measure up to what she wants me to be, and competeting with certain people in my grade. I'm just not a competitive person about something like this. I don't care where i sit in orchestra! I don't care that i don't try out for all state. I don't care, yet somehow she expects me to, so much! What is wrong with that lady? Anyone know??
Anyway, i need to go eat and then leave. But i just had to get that out, for my own sake. Hopefull on to a better night...