break
alive, awake, alert, sort of enthusiastic.
my dad's still oblivious. god damn.
however:
I'm going to try to get it out of my system here so I never have to write about it again.
um so i'm kind of dating kathryn now and it is sort of fantastic. honestly. the best analogy i can come up with is that the last we has seemed like a really good dream at the end of a series of really shitty dreams that i've been having off and on for the past year and a half or so.
i know this is me being stupid and we've been seeing each other for like a week and that things are still incredibly complicated and that we're both going to have to go back to school and study abroad in alternating semesters and that i don't know what the hell it is that i'm doing but this is pretty much incredible.
it's hard not to think of this in terms of kismet; like, we've been doing this weird "we sort of like each other oh man too bad we're dating other people never got the timing right" dance for about two or three years now and now that we have, i'm struck by this realization that it probably wouldn't have worked had we started before now; before both of us were in college and sort of knew what it was like and shit. and i'm worried about what happens when we go back, but not that worried 'cause i'm living in the moment, just a bit. god knows I have a hard time doing that.
anyway, my break is kicking ass, if only for that reason
my dad's still oblivious. god damn.
however:
I'm going to try to get it out of my system here so I never have to write about it again.
um so i'm kind of dating kathryn now and it is sort of fantastic. honestly. the best analogy i can come up with is that the last we has seemed like a really good dream at the end of a series of really shitty dreams that i've been having off and on for the past year and a half or so.
i know this is me being stupid and we've been seeing each other for like a week and that things are still incredibly complicated and that we're both going to have to go back to school and study abroad in alternating semesters and that i don't know what the hell it is that i'm doing but this is pretty much incredible.
it's hard not to think of this in terms of kismet; like, we've been doing this weird "we sort of like each other oh man too bad we're dating other people never got the timing right" dance for about two or three years now and now that we have, i'm struck by this realization that it probably wouldn't have worked had we started before now; before both of us were in college and sort of knew what it was like and shit. and i'm worried about what happens when we go back, but not that worried 'cause i'm living in the moment, just a bit. god knows I have a hard time doing that.
anyway, my break is kicking ass, if only for that reason