life is soporific.
The whole summer's been a haze.I have about a month till my full time school schedule starts.Here are some things I thought I would accomplish by now but haven't.
1.lost a shitload of weight
I lost fifteen pounds, which is great.But not when you'd like to lose 30 more
2.Met a great guy, and hung onto him
Rather, I've met a handful a shitheads that lead me on and don't talk to me anymore
3.Learn my limits in drinking
I don't exactly drink as much as I used to, but not two weeks ago I drank myself out of conciousness.That shit needs to stop.
4.Gone on a cruise
I also don't exactly want to go on a cruise until I lost more weight (that was the plan)
More about number 2. Adam's been texting me off and on lately.And of course, instead of taking it with a grain of salt, I got super-excited and now I feel like a jackass again.Long story short, he's got a girlfriend.I tell myself over and over to just let shit go and whomever is supposed to be with me will find me.
I have to get my head out of the past and start living in the moment.I just miss it so much.Ya know, when you can have him over just to watch stupid cartoons and talk about our shitty lives and then go get sushi.I haven't had that spot filled in a long time.
And for the recored, anthony's out of my life.He'll be in Iraq or something im sure soon and for 4 years.So that's that.
Woe is Me