you can't belittle this, this could change everything
dear you,
someone was wearing your pants at the show last night & I missed you in that moment. they wore them like you do, a little too low so you look assless. I'm sorry I lied. I had to, you understand, don't you? well, I guess you don't understand because you don't know I lied. but I did. look, it's not important whether I do or not. that isn't the point. I didn't intend to in the first place, but it happened, & it scared me & I tried to fight it off until I actually said it aloud to someone else. but it isn't important, not in the slightest, because no matter what, I'd be the same person. the same tenderness mixed with the same sass. I've been thinking about this all day. I lied. I can't believe I lied. once I lied to someone else just like you & it was terrible. but it was a different lie. same context though, it had to happen. let's forget about it. understand that it has to be done to keep a balance in the world. what I want will never matter. it wasn't that anyway, not necessarily. I don't know what I want, do you? do any of us? so, my apologies. the lie will continue, it did again today & will again tomorrow. it won't end. I'm trying, believe me, & I think often of what Kyle said about honesty but it doesn't always apply. it never did in this situation & probably never will. I just think everything through & that's why I lied. it was like that night, that morning, whatever. I knew what was happening & I visualized it through & it was a lie. it's safer. but I promise I'm trying to be better. I hope you are too.
love,
me.
(this shouldn't make sense, I guess. read my myspace blog. & friend me, too.)
someone was wearing your pants at the show last night & I missed you in that moment. they wore them like you do, a little too low so you look assless. I'm sorry I lied. I had to, you understand, don't you? well, I guess you don't understand because you don't know I lied. but I did. look, it's not important whether I do or not. that isn't the point. I didn't intend to in the first place, but it happened, & it scared me & I tried to fight it off until I actually said it aloud to someone else. but it isn't important, not in the slightest, because no matter what, I'd be the same person. the same tenderness mixed with the same sass. I've been thinking about this all day. I lied. I can't believe I lied. once I lied to someone else just like you & it was terrible. but it was a different lie. same context though, it had to happen. let's forget about it. understand that it has to be done to keep a balance in the world. what I want will never matter. it wasn't that anyway, not necessarily. I don't know what I want, do you? do any of us? so, my apologies. the lie will continue, it did again today & will again tomorrow. it won't end. I'm trying, believe me, & I think often of what Kyle said about honesty but it doesn't always apply. it never did in this situation & probably never will. I just think everything through & that's why I lied. it was like that night, that morning, whatever. I knew what was happening & I visualized it through & it was a lie. it's safer. but I promise I'm trying to be better. I hope you are too.
love,
me.
(this shouldn't make sense, I guess. read my myspace blog. & friend me, too.)