closed my eyes, just for tonight.
well, this morning i went to barrett's and brought some things to sell. i got 2 dollars so far from my things...hardcore...then barrett gave me 5 bucks for bringing things and sitting around which im very thankful for. then i saw dan and i wanted to cry because i've missed him so much. now im waiting to go to the beach...and i wanna kill myself. i hate the beach so much. i find it so fucking pointless. i hate the water, i hate the massive crowds of people, i hate how dirty it is, i fucking HATE the heat. my mom is being such an asshole. she won't shut up about me being such a bitch and how i expect too much. it's like "uhh shut the fuck up?" she thinks i take all of her money...she offers, so i take. and i was brought up by asians, not in my immediate family, that have told me to take whatever has been offered. its a one in a lifetime chance they would say...although i might not follow that all the time, and offer more than take, but whatever. im going now. please call my cellie, its on my am.