so i was in the hospital
i was hoping that i could use this journal to kind of expose my experiences of the last year and that by putting them out there for just anyone to see it would help me be more comfortable talking about it in real life with my family and my friends.
It's harder than i thought it would be.
I have sat down to write so many times over the last week but i always get scared. It would be really easy to just never talk about it and hope i could forget it happened. but then i'm afraid that if i minimize it and forget it that when or if i start seeing the familiar patterns emerge i might just minimize the threat i know i'm just rambling but i'm very confused and scared right now. still.
not every day in the hospital was bad, i had some laughs but overall i pretty much wanted to be dead almost every day.
I f i just write every day maybe i'll accidentally get to the point...
It's harder than i thought it would be.
I have sat down to write so many times over the last week but i always get scared. It would be really easy to just never talk about it and hope i could forget it happened. but then i'm afraid that if i minimize it and forget it that when or if i start seeing the familiar patterns emerge i might just minimize the threat i know i'm just rambling but i'm very confused and scared right now. still.
not every day in the hospital was bad, i had some laughs but overall i pretty much wanted to be dead almost every day.
I f i just write every day maybe i'll accidentally get to the point...